12/28/2007
I didn't disappear
12/20/2007
Happy Anniversary
I was 20 and he was 19
Only he is in Florida and I am in Oklahoma and the divorce will be final in February....big dreams died for me and today is just a reminder of that:**(
12/09/2007
It's WEATHER!
Oh my gosh stop everything and take over the TV to show all the white stuff. I am cranky today so I will try to be nice but how many ways can you show the weather? Since I have been in Oklahoma I have seen them put down shovels, hats, upside down unbrellas to collect snow..they have scraped the ground, the cars, the railings and anything they can get their cameras near... I have seen people roll chairs and cameras outside to show you how quickly the snow/sleet can accumulate. I have seen weathermens eyes roll back in their heads while they described the snowflake that was frozen in the piece of ice that just fell on their jacket...can you get a close up Bob because THIS IS AMAZING stuff??!!...Today I saw a shirt on a hanger that they froze along with a VHS tape to the top of a car. What for?? And didn't we already have ICE STORM 2007? Should this be 2007 part B or 2007 part B subtopic A number 1? I really think my friend and I had the best idea last year when we discussed this...if you haven't read it you MUST because she is funny!!
Even my oldest got up and looked at the tv and said "we get it! there is white stuff on the ground! do we have to listen to this all day? I mean if I wanted to be a meterologist I might care BUT I DON'T".....oh it is going to be a LONG few days because THIS IS ONLY ROUND ONE OF TWO STORM SYSTEMS!!! TWO PEOPLE!!! Ok I think I need to find some chocolate:-P
12/03/2007
Barbie - 2 teaspoons of sensitivity - a heaping teaspoon of charisma - a gallon of humor Combine all stirring until smooth. | |
'What is your personality recipe?' at QuizGalaxy.com |
11/26/2007
Oh how I love Thanksgiving.....
oh my word I just had the BEST ThanksgivingS! First I want to tell you how absolutely BLESSED I am to have such great friends and I know that. My SIL was going to come into town for Thanksgiving Day but plans changed at the last minute so my friend, Jesica, canceled her plans to cook us dinner...how sweet is that?? So not expected but really appreciated! I wasn't stressing because we knew we were going to celebrate on Saturday with our "family" during the game....BUT instead of just one day we got to celebrate TWICE:-) Jesica has a gift of hospitality and is the friend I can call and say "add 4 more for dinner tonight" and she can do it without batting an eye...trust me that is a HUGE gift and I have called when it was getting late and I was on her side of town and didn't feel like cooking. I do love you Jesi and not just for your cooking lol She IS Martha Stewart in the kitchen and made a HUGE spread...We got there before noon and stayed till after dark and spent most of that time eating. I am talking fruit trays, pickle and olive trays, veggies and dip, sausage and cheese trays AND thanksgiving dinner. It was THE BEST TURKEY I have ever had and that is saying a lot since I don't like turkey:-) We even ate the leftover turkey on Friday because it was SO GOOD. Then on Saturday we went over my favorite persons house for her family Thanksgiving. It is so sweet of her to include us in with her family. Talk about feeling loved! My kids even told my Mom on the phone that we were having "our real family Thanksgiving" on Saturday. She is my heart and I consider her my sister even if we aren't really related..Our kids think we fight like sisters anyway but only because we are both stubborn lol I SOOO love you Merci:**) She is also an AMAZING AMAZING cook! Oh my word I ate enough dressing for a whole family! I was down 13 lbs but I probably regained it on her dressing alone. Oh my word when she took it out of the oven I was GIDDY!! Food makes me that happy lol Oh but let me tell you when she pulled it out you could see the butter on the top! That stuff is AMAZING!! Her dh also smoked the turkey and who doesn't like smoked turkey so I was in food heaven. We ate those leftovers on Sunday so we have had turkey for FOUR days straight and enjoyed every single bite. I also had a WHOLE plate of dressing yesterday by myself. You can keep the pies because her dressing is a dessert all by itself. Most of all though it was SO nice to spend Thanksgiving with people who love you unconditionally. I know I am blessed and I pray I can be a blessing too. I love you ladies!!
Wow I am so lovely lol
11/21/2007
Happy Thanksgiving!!
Happy Thanksgiving!!! I can't even begin to tell you all the things I am thankful for this year!! Not only would it take forever but I really don't have time to be sitting at the computer lol This will be my second Thanksgiving in Oklahoma...Our second Thankgiving away from my biological family and once again we won't be alone. Tomorrow we are going to spend it with new friends and Saturday we will be celebrating with my favorite person in the whole world. I couldn't be more blessed. I may be single and raising my kids alone but I have the best friends in the whole world! God has truly blessed us:-)
11/06/2007
My Kids
10/27/2007
Just Some Random Thoughts...
My hair is SHORT...way SHORT! Like above my shoulders short!!...I still can't believe I had it all cut off. Never sit down and say "do whatever you want" unless you mean it!
I don't like making decisions and big decisions make me nauseous
I made a huge one but don't want to share it since I can't say it out loud yet lol I promise I will in a couple of weeks...2 weeks and 4 days to be exact;-)
My oldest also got a haircut and I LOVE that I can see his face again;-)
It is report card time again which means teacher conferences and I hate rushing home to do them
Being a single Mom that works full time is busy enough without having to schedule meetings with teachers
I am terrified of Dentist so I was thankful my checkup was cavity free but he still found reasons for me to come back...oh joy@@
I am in the process of teeth whitening and it taste so nasty lol
I wish I had worn my retainer like the orthodontist said
I have only had ONE diet coke in a week and I swear it really was easier to quit smoking...I think there is crack in diet coke or something.....now I look longingly at all drive thrus and convenience stores knowing that inside they have cold diet coke;-) I am sure it will pass although I quit smoking 14 yrs ago and sometimes that sounds good too.
I drank a gallon of water yesterday
It was flavored so I could deal with it but I still miss my diet coke with lime
I have lost 9lbs in the last few weeks
I have 15 more to be happy and to be able to go to Weight Watchers again for free lol
It is all part of the Extreme Makeover Barbie Edition aka mid life crisis maybe lol
Holidays are coming and I am still not happy about them
BUT I have AMAZING friends that make life easier
And I serve an AWESOME Lord that make life worth living
So even without my diet coke or food that taste good I can be happy...short hair and all;-)
10/24/2007
Reason #492
My son had to perform last night as part of the fall festival for his choir class...I don't know what they called it but they sang and some kids danced lol His middle school and the high school that I work at both performed so it was really cool! I don't know why this always shocks me but I hope I never forget this is one of the reasons I LOVE living here....on the list of songs that they sang AT A PUBLIC SCHOOL were
Joshua (you know the battle of Jericho one)
Prayer
and
God is our Refuge
Gotta love living in the Bible belt:-) That so would not have been allowed back home!
On another note if you are a single Mom and don't know how to tie a tie here you go
How to Tie a Tie - wikiHow
I had such a time trying to figure it out and finally I threw it around my neck and did something that looked half way decent. Then when I arrived at school I realized I didn't need to stress because several kids were standing in line with the principal while he tied them around his neck and gave them to the boys lol Thankfully it wasn't just MY son:-)
10/20/2007
My name is Barbie
10/16/2007
Nice Surprise
10/14/2007
Update...sorry so late!!
I guess there really is nothing else going on here this week except some dentist appointments, allergy shots, youth group and normal life stuff like shopping, cooking, cleaning, spending time with friends etc...I really can't complain because although my life is busy it is also full. I have amazing friends and I get to spend time with them and that makes all the crazy stuff seem ok. I have an AMAZING church that I love. I have children that I adore...
hey my weather alarm is going off!!! brb...Ok back it was just a thunderstorm warning lol Ok I am breathing again...wow that scared me!!..hey look you get to see how my brain works lol Speaking of how my brain works. I think I got to see Frontier City last Thursday. I was so lost again. This time I was REALLY REALLY lost!! I was so prepared and had printed up directions to and from a golf course that I needed to pick something up at. Then my plans changed and I was going to stop at the golf course and then go see my favorite person for dinner with her family. Once I got to the golf course I realized I only knew how to get home and not to her house:-/ Whoops!! So I asked the guy for directions which was funny because I didn't know where I was going unless I went back home and drove there. I don't know street names I just know where to turn lol Anyway, he gives me directions and they are WRONG!! I am driving and driving and all of a sudden I realize I am really lost and there is I-35 and some huge amusement park with a spider on some big ride so I call my friends house. No answer and I am panicking because I don't know where to turn. I am sure my message amused them but I was lost! I called another friend who told me to turn around...thanks Clem! :-P Then my other friends Dad heard my message and called me back and told me how to get back to her house...she walked in while we were talking and he told her where I was and she snorted! Thanks Merci:-P I love ya'll too:-) I guess the good part is I got to see a whole nother part of the city..I wouldn't know how to get back there but I can say I have been. I can tell you one thing it is NEVER boring around here lol
10/07/2007
Meeting Update!!
10/06/2007
Saturday!
The rancor in the Red River Rivalry apparently doesn't die between football or basketball seasons.
An Oklahoma City man has been charged with aggravated assault and battery, accused of causing extensive damage to another man's scrotum just because he wore a University of Texas shirt into a local bar.
I think the worst sentence was this one
Thomas hit the other man several times before several bar patrons intervened, but Thomas said Beckett didn't let go until Thomas heard his scrotum tear and blood ran down his leg.
OUCH! Anyway, I am excited about the game but something else is happening today that is pretty exciting too!! I get to meet Ame and martie!! Woohoo!!! If you are wondering who they are then you aren't reading The Covering~ for Single Parents:-) If you look on my sidebar you will see the button that a friend put on for me since I couldn't figure it out lol They are amazing women that have understood what other single Moms are going through and what we truly need. Martie isn't single anymore but she was and she can offer amazing perspective on what it is like to come out on the other side. All of us on the Covering have different stories and are single for different reasons. Here are a few examples:-)
Martie-Let me begin…..
Ame- Clay In the Hands
and here is mine for those who haven't read here long enough to know the whole thing
Barbie- My Journey to the Promised Land
Now for those who don't have company coming go make some football food and enjoy the game!!!
10/03/2007
Sweat Test Update!
9/26/2007
Overwhelmed
I think what people don't understand is that we are still human and God created us with the need for others. Adam had everything but God still created Eve so that Adam wasn't lonely...wouldn't it make sense that HE created us with this need? I think sometimes people forget that and think that we should be totally ok alone and just "trust God"...Don't get me wrong I DO trust God with everything in me but there are times I go to bed and cry myself to sleep because I have a LOT going on.....there are times I need to hear another adults voice after spending my days and nights with just kids...there are times I need others to just listen or pray with me...that doesn't mean *I* am lacking in faith. I am hurting right now and I am just so sick of hearing about how I should be coping...In Romans 12:15 the Bible says
15Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn.
It doesn't say tell them how they should mourn or give them advice on how to lean on God. It simply says mourn with them. I guess what I am trying to get across is just imagine you have had a horrible day or you got horrible news and you share with your dh and he turns around and says "oh just trust God...you know He has a plan and works all things out for good" when all you really needed was a hug...how would you feel? Or imagine you are a teenager and you go to your parents and they say "just lean on God"....well, that is how I feel. I feel like because I am single I am expected to not have feelings anymore. I don't know if that makes sense to anyone other than me but I think a simple "I am sorry" would have been best. I guess in a perfect world....
9/25/2007
Dr Appt update
9/24/2007
Today is the day
9/18/2007
ProAir (200 puffs) 8.5gm ...$122.89
Advair 250/50 ...$210.99
Pataday.2% 2.5ml ...$287.89
Nasonex 50mcg 17g ...$284.89
Albuterol 0.083%... $57.99
Prednisone 20mg ...$11.99
Epipen .3mg ...$123.99
weekly allergy shots...?? don't know yet
seeing your child breathe....priceless
**thankfully the kids are insured so I didn't pay the full price
9/17/2007
Monday
this is the left arm
That is really all I can say right now...thanks for the prayers.
9/16/2007
Here I am...
Sept 5th-broke hand
Sept 6th-oldest wasn't feeling well (asthma) so my help was gone. I decided I was hard headed so I went grocery shopping and cooked two dinners since the next day I wouldn't have time.
Sept 7th--ate the second dinner and went to church for a dance...I was doing childcare so I couldn't get out of it.
Sept 8th-Waited for the cable guy to install my highspeed (OMWORD I LOVE THIS!!) and cable while I watched OU win YAY! lol That night Auntie Jesica made the birthday dinner for my "big" 8yo
Sept 9th-church
Sept 10th-wow I think we were actually home this night doing nothing
Sept 11th-we had our new neighbor and her 4 kids over for dinner...awesome family!
Sept 12th-we had church and I met a friend at Starbucks for coffee
Sept 13th-went with my favorite person in the whole world to see her son play baseball (he did an AMAZING job!!" and then we all went out to dinner....I LOVE seeing them!! Makes my heart happy!
Sept 14th-Went with Jesica out to dinner withOUT children...her wonderful dh watched all 6 of our kids :-) Then we went shopping and of course, STARBUCKS:-D We always have fun when we go off!
Sept 15th-went to a cookout at friends and watched Facing the Giants which makes me cry every single time
Sept 16th-hey that is today!! I worked in the infant room at church with 5 babies under 6 months:-) SO MUCH FUN!
I think that should catch everyone up...Oh my oldest is seeing a specialist in the morning because of the incident in Florida if you want to send up prayers....hopefully they can figure out what caused his esophagus to close so he couldn't swallow:-/ Thanks for asking. Hopefully my hand will heal quickly so I can type without pain...until then I am stubborn so I will be ok:-P
9/08/2007
Happy Birthday - you're 8!
Yes, that is right. The 8 year old asked for blackeyed peas and cornbread. She is NOT a normal child. But I do what I'm told, so that's what we had. See ...
After much noise and merriment, there was also cake.
A good time was had by all. The birthday girl got great gifts, emails, phone calls, and even one text message.
Now, if you'll excuse me, there's a 13 year old who needs his butt beat.
Goodnight
9/05/2007
9/03/2007
How rude!
Something I never thought I would do
Cox--hello can I help you?
me--yes I couldn't watch the OU game last night and that is unacceptable!
cox--laughing...we can help you with that
me--PLEASE DO IT NOW so this doesn't happen again EVER
cox--no problem ma'am...I see you already have phone with us so all I have to do it add cable and would you like highspeed?
me--I just want to see OU but how much?
cox--quotes some ridiculously low price
me--are you kidding? can you be here TODAY?
cox-no lol but we can be there during the week before the next OU game
me--that would be great but I work:-( do you have anything on the weekend?
cox--how about Saturday between 12-3?
me--hmm the game comes on at 11 but it is on ABC...hmm that is my dd birthday...hmm SURE lol
more info and we hang up
CAN YOU BELIEVE I just got cable for FOOTBALL?? ME?? the person who didn't even know what the line of scrimmage was...in my defense it kept moving and I am NOT kidding about that lol... I also had no clue what a down was or how many there were and I know I was a cheerleader in highschool but that didn't mean I knew what I was cheering for! We had a captain and we just cheered. Still last year I thought I would watch and see what the big deal was because the town closes down for football... here I am a year later getting cable and I am doing it for FOOTBALL!! Oh my word I AM an Okie:-P I may not be an Okie by birth but I sure am by choice:-D And I wouldn't change it because I LOVE it here:-D
8/30/2007
Oh my!
8/25/2007
Wedding Rings
Last week I decided it was time to get rid of my wedding rings. It wasn't something I wanted to pass down to my dd for reasons I don't feel like explaining. What I didn't realize was how hard it would hit me. My dh is Irish so we had the Claddagh ring - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia this picture doesn't look like mine did but it explains the symbolism behind the ring. I think the poem that went with it said
With this crown
I give my loyalty
With these hands
I offer my service
With this heart
I give you mine
in love, in friendship, let us reign
Our wedding was also based on rings...funny we eloped and this wasn't planned but because I am so extremely sentimental it was perfect. The wedding certificate that hung on our wall until last year said
As these rings are linked together and are entwined around the cross, it is our prayer that our lives will be eternally bound together by love and that our Lord Jesus Christ will be the head of our home and the center of our lives.
Funny how things worked out so differently than I thought they would. I guess the only thing left is for the actually divorce to happen.
8/23/2007
Some weeks....
I hate hormones and feeling crazy
I hate being a single Mom
I hate that I have to do this alone
I hate that there is not enough hours in a week
THIS is one of those weeks
Just to show you how crazy *I* am this was my day TODAY
I woke up which was my first mistake
I got three kids off to school
I went to work
I rushed home because I needed to be somewhere by 4
I picked up the kids and rushed oldest to the Dentist..ok I took all three with me but only one needed to be seen:-)
Sat at the dentist for over an hour
stopped at Starbucks for a coffee for me and a frap for oldest who was numb and not wanting to eat yet
picked up a bucket of chicken for younger two since I needed to be at school at 6:30
came home and started dinner
Did you catch that? I cooked dinner AFTER I picked up dinner! YES I DID! THAT is how insane I am right now!! I literally sat the food down on the table and started dinner and my middle child said "what about the food you just bought?"
So we had two dinners tonight:-/
Tomorrow has to be better right??
8/19/2007
Sunday Ramblings
Just so you don't miss the cuteness on mine here is the side view lol
Payless had the BOGO 1/2 off sale so I splurged on me too:-) You kind of have to buy 4 to get half off on two...that's my story and I'm sticking to it:-)
I guess that it all I wanted to ramble about...I was hoping this coffee would kick in so I could finish cleaning but I think a nap is in order instead. As my favorite person would say "Sunday naps are sacred" so I think I will take her advice. BTW if you are ever at Starbucks try ordering a white chocolate mocha with a shot of caramel...YUMMY! It is like turtle candy! Have a wonderful Sunday!
Oh one more random thought....do NOT get a pedicure if you have a broken toe because you just may want to kick the person when she goes to crack your toes;-)
8/17/2007
TGIF
I know they aren't the greatest of pics but my camera was being fussy on Wednesday! or it was me lol
My babies started school! They are in 8th, 5th and 2nd:-) I would have posted sooner but I don't think I have had time to stop long enough to do it! I also don't know what I did all summer but I don't think it involved long periods of standing because my legs are killing me...does this mean I am old? :-) Anyway, they started on Wednesday and that is a busy day during the school year for us...somehow I have to get kids home, homework finished, fed and ready for church on time but I am not complaining because I wouldn't trade my job for the world!! I missed them so much this summer that even when I am crazy busy I am enjoying every minute with them. Thursday my boys went with the men at church for GUY NIGHT (you have to yell it) so I had to rush to get them fed and delivered on time. Then I came home and ate ice cream in bed with my daughter while watching Little House episodes and laughing. Sunday night we are having another girls night while the boys go to watch wrestling with a friends dh. Fun times! Ok off to work I go for another round with 2000+ teenagers...how blessed am I??!!! Seriously I LOVE my job!
8/12/2007
Sunday's Song
Because of Who You Are
Because of who You are, I give You glory
Because of who You are, I give You praise
Because of who You are, I will lift my voice and say
Lord I worship You, because of who You are
Lord I worship You, because of who You are.
Because of who You are, I give You glory
Because of who You are, I give You praise
Because of who You are, I will lift my voice and say
Lord I worship You, because of who You are
Lord I worship You, because of who You are.
Jehovah Jireh, my Provider
Jehovah Nissi, Lord You reign in victory
Jehovah Shalom, my Prince of Peace
And I worship You, because of who You Are
8/11/2007
Mark this date down!!
*bonus points to those who know which movie that is from:-P
8/02/2007
High School
13. Did you go to the Prom?
22. Who was your Senior Prom Date?
8/01/2007
Can you believe it???
I came without a job yet God provided the perfect one for our situation. I work school hours so my children do not have to be left alone. I have holidays and summers off.
I have a church that has blessed me and been the body of Christ to us from fixing my car to making sure I was taken care of after my surgery. With the exception of 4th of July we haven't spent a single holiday alone.
I have amazing friends and a support system unlike anything I have ever had. I came from a large family but one that isn't close and for the first time I am seeing what true family is like. With Gods help I am going to break the cycle and I pray my children will know what real love is in their relationships and not repeat the same mistakes.... I have a dear dear friend that I have known for 8 yrs now that I couldn't love more than I already do and her family has adopted me and for that I am so beyond grateful. I love them so very much.
Last year I cried a lot because of all the firsts that we had but this year I am actually excited!! I no longer am worried about if I can make it because we have made it. I now know that no matter what God is going to take care of us...I don't mean I just believe it... I KNOW IT!! And I know He will because He has!!
I am going into this year full of excitement.
I have been approved for a home and hopefully we can find one in this area and move soon.
I am still debt free and that has been a challenge because it is soooooooooo tempting to put stuff on credit especially since this is a great excuse lol
I have 3 wonderful children that I don't have to say goodbye too for another year.
I will be divorced by Feb at the latest and that chapter of my life will be closed. FTR I do NOT believe in divorce...this was a decision that came with a lot of prayer and I believe with everything in me that God is ok with this because He knows ALL the details;-) I know I am in God's will and He has blessed us beyond measure for that faith in stepping out and trusting Him.
This year was scary and every time I said I couldn't do something it happened. It was like a crash course in having faith:-) I am more careful about the things I speak outloud lol
For those who have been there for me the last year THANK YOU seems so little.
For those who haven't here are some highlights from our first year in the "promised land"
Aug--
We arrived to find a beautiful friend waiting for me at my new apartment with cleaning supplies and a teenager to help lol Then she took us all to dinner.
I found a job and a church that I love.
Sept--
got to watch my kids see fall for the first time
Oct--
son broke arm and I was thankful that I have an "in case of emergency" person in my life that I trusted with my most valuable possessions;-) When you are married or live near family that in case of emergency person is almost taken for granted because you have one built in....moving here alone away from family has made me totally appreciate that person lol Thankfully I trust her with my life and any major decision that needs to be made because she knows my heart.
Stbx quit job to move here and things didn't turn out like he expected and I had to make a decision to trust that God was my provider and not him.
We all started counseling.
Nov--
first Thanksgiving in Oklahoma and I got to celebrate twice:-) I had homeless people over for dinner at my place on Thanksgiving and that Saturday I spent Thanksgiving with a friend and her family..I think that was my first bedlam game also lol
Children made sleet angels...hey don't laugh I didn't know!! and then they saw snow for the first time...ya know after the sleet I made them play in!
Dec--
First b-day for me in Oklahoma without my family and yet I had 3 cakes:-)
I had surgery
I celebrated my first anniversary single:*(
We had our first Christmas and we spent it with a dear friend and her parents.
Jan--
Our first ice storm and boy was it fun lol I think I was stuck at home for a week before someone came and dug my car out so I could drive...or attempt to drive;-)
Feb--
We actually made it 6 months and was able to file for divorce. HUGE answer to prayer because this meant Oklahoma had jurisdiction. It was so hard to do and hurt way more than I thought it would.
March--
Our first spring and it was beautiful!! I am in love with the big white trees and the freaky purple cartoon looking ones:-) Yeah those are the technical names:-P
Oh yeah first siren that wasn't on a Saturday at noon!! Oh my word!! lol
April--
Our first court date and you would think I would have more faith by now but I was a basket case. I didn't go alone and I even had a lawyer take my case which was a blessing. My friend and her Dad went with me... I don't think I can ever explain how much it meant to see this man stand there and just be so protective of me. I have never felt so loved. I can't ever tell that without getting choked up....And my friend was amazing! When I lost control and started yelling she was able to stop me and pray right there in the courthouse and remind me this wasn't about me but about God's will and my children...who could ask for a better friend??
Second siren!!
May--
Schools out and I don't have to work for the summer:-)
Daughter had to be put under but I didn't have to do it alone because my friends are awesome and they brought chocolate.
June--
Started counseling for just me and meds for depression...finally felt the fog lift.
Transmission goes out in car and before *I can figure something out my church takes care of it!! God already had a plan before it happened! How cool is that??!!
I had to say goodbye to my children for 41 days.
Cried A LOT because my babies were gone.
All of my amazing friends kept me busy with dinners, lunches, Starbucks, bowling, movies, laughing, cooking for the month, shopping etc
July--
Got two tattoos because I am going through mid life crisis:-)
One is a cross with eagle wings and has Isaiah 40:31 on it because that verse means something to me. The other is "your name" on my back because I really am silly.
My son had surgery in FLORIDA while I was in Oklahoma but once again I had a friend that was there to pick me up and carry me to my Fathers feet. It was one of those fears that I had before they left and I never thought I would survive not being able to be there... God showed me that even if I couldn't do it He could. I am just so thankful that I didn't have to do it alone. God has truly truly blessed me with the best friends anyone could ever ask for.
That is just a few of the things that we have experienced this year. In some ways this year has flown and in others it was THE LONGEST YEAR I have lived. I am one of those people that watches dates so I am thankful that it is over...
no more firsts to live through
no more worrying about the what ifs
no more wondering if we can make it
no more fears about my car breaking down or child support stopping or visitation
no more wondering if I can make it through the summer without working
no more feeling like I am doing this alone
I just have one more court date to live through that I am trying not to stress about it but I know that I won't be alone because God has a plan. One day He will share details with me or maybe I will just learn to trust Him fully:-) I can honestly say I am not the same person that I was a year ago. I am so much stronger than I ever thought I was as long as I don't try to do it in MY strength. I have grown so much and it hasn't been easy but I have been held up by the love and prayers of people that mean the world to me. I love my friends and I love my church. I think I am happy for the first time in a LONG time. Without going into detail I really did leave Egypt for the Promised Land and although I grumbled at times because it IS hard
I have never doubted this is where God wants me.
Not one time in a whole year and that has to mean something.....
Thank you Father for getting us through this first year...thank you for the people you have placed in our lives to make this bearable...bless them because I know I can never repay them in this lifetime....thank you for the "family" you have given us that truly loves and cares for us and shows us in every way.....thank you for directing every step and opening doors and making a way when I couldn't see one...thank for a church that loves my children...thank you for loving us...I love you! I know I am so blessed......
7/28/2007
I was tagged
1. Name someone who made you smile today?
My kids:) Did I tell you they were home? ;-) YAY!
2. What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
I wish I could say sleeping but I was talking to the 2 out of 3 kids that were up. Considering they have been staying up all hours of the night for 6 weeks this was nothing short of a miracle. I could have done without the one getting up at 6 but I am not complaining.
3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Reading blogs while eating Doritos and drinking diet coke with lime because I am all about a healthy breakfast;-)
4. Name something that happened to you in 1992?
I was in the room when my SIL had her 3rd child. Honestly it was wonderful and so heartbreaking at the same time. I had been trying to years and never thought I would be able to have my own.
5. When is your birthday?
Dec 6! You can start shopping now to beat the rush:-P
6. Four words to explain why you last threw up?
My son had surgery
7. What color is your hairbrush?
black/purple
8. What was the last thing you bought?
Pizza to feed 11 people and only 3 were adults:-)
9. Where do you keep your money?
What money??
10. What was the weather like today?
Haven't been outside but the temp on my computer says 88 here and 90 in Jax, Fl. In here I have A/C so it feels great to me:-)
11. Where did your last hug take place?
In my apartment
12. What are you excited about?
My kids are home!! Keep up people lol
13. Do you want to cut your hair?
I never know..I cut it and then want it long...when it grows up I want it short. I don't know WHAT I want!
14. Are you over the age of 25?
Yes but age doesn't bother me
15. Do you talk a lot?
ROFL YES!! And I know 2 of you just snorted when you read that so HUSH!
16. Do you watch The O.C.?
nope
17. Does your screen name have an "x" in it?
Weird question but no
18. Do you know anyone named Kelsey?
ummm no
19. Do you make up your own words?
No I just pronounce the ones we already have in my own way...did you know orange is pronounced RRR-ange? or mayor is pronounced MARE and not MAYor...Hey you grow up with a native American Mom that grew up in Rhode Island and a British Father that grew up in Alabama and see if you can talk??
20. Are you ticklish?
Nope
21. Are you typically a jealous person?
No, No No, and NO. And I can't stand jealousy, especially among girlfriends. We're not in junior high anymore.
I just left Merci's answer because she is allowed to speak for me. It is a law.
22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter "C".
Cheryl
23. Who was the last person to call you?
I had to check my phone but it was the same person who tagged me for this lol I talked to others after that but I must have called them lol
24. Do you chew on your straws?
No and I can't stand it when people do...HUGE pet peeve!!
25. Do you have curly hair?
Oh no! I wish!
26. What is the next concert you're going to?
Probably Otisburg because my son will drag me:-) He is their biggest fan because he knows "guitar dude" personally.
27.Where did you go today?
I am not leaving my house today.
28. What is something you say a lot?
I am all about....I love you!....Geez I talk a lot remember? I am sure I say a lot of things a lot lol
29. Have you seen the movie 'Donnie Darko'?
Never heard of it.
30. Do you have to work tomorrow?
I have 3 kids what do you think? If you mean a paying job I don't go back till school starts.
31. Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?
I would have to say my kids in person but I am sure I just told someone else in a comment and in email. I told you I say it a lot.
32. What should you be doing right now?
Finishing my book but I know once I pick it up I won't want to put it down
33. Do you have a nickname?
I don't think I do unless you count Barbie. Oh wait the stbx might have one for me;-)
34. Are you a heavy sleeper?
No
35. What are you listening to?
My children talking to each other
36. What is the best movie you've seen in the past two week?
Ok this week I started out watching a movie with a friend to take my mind off the fact my son was fixin to have surgery.... then I watched a movie at another friends house....I also took the kids to see Spiderman 3 when they came home
...none of which were "the best" but I laughed and enjoyed the company
37. Is there anyone you like right now?
I am still legally married to my first mistake so NO.
38. When was the last time you did the dishes?
Last night after dinner
39. Did you cry today?
Not yet but the day isn't over.
I guess I will tag ~*~Jesica~*~ because she makes me laugh too! Hey and don't use the excuse you are going out of town!! :-P
7/27/2007
Too bad you can't hear how loud it is here but I am so loving the noise:-) I even enjoyed cooking a homecooked meal tonight knowing that they were eating healthy and not fast food.
Oh and for those who have asked about my oldest....I talked to the Dr today and the results of his biopsy confirm that he has Eosinophilic Esophagitis Now we just need to find out what it is that he is allergic to:-( Poor baby has already been through the allergy scratch test and I am not in a hurry to repeat that again! He has an appt next week to get a referral to a specialist and see where we go from here. I am just thankful that they are home safe where they belong.