Last Post of 2006

I could sit here and do a whole "looking back at 2006" post but honestly I don't want to look back. This has been THE hardest year I have been asked to live. I don't want to RE-live it at all. I want to focus on looking ahead because this next year is a new beginning for me. I also don't plan on making a list of resolutions although I do have a few...things like sleeping in my bed lol Can you believe I have only slept in it once since I moved here 5 months ago?! My real goal is just to spend more time with the One that holds my future..I think spending time in the Word will take care of all those other "resolutions" that people make from overeating to just being a better person. It really does have ALL the answers if we just read it AND apply it:-) I guess if I could describe in one word what my goal for 2007 is it would be surrender...I want to learn to surrender ALL...all to Jesus I surrender:-)


I know I said I wasn't going to share my city with you but I changed my mind:-P This was just too good not to share....Enjoy! The Christmas message is now up Lakeside Assembly of God - Oklahoma City Church Yeah I love my church:-)


I knew the holidays would be hard but I was surprised by how hard they truly were. I think the flood of emotions surprised even me. I am not going to sit here and focus on the negative because it was hard enough to live without going into detail and bringing up all those emotions again...I DO want to share with you how blessed I have been these past few months and in sharing it with you I am hoping to lift my own spirits:-) When I moved to Oklahoma I moved here completely on faith. It was scary as heck with 3 kids but I knew that it was Gods will and I have no doubt He is blessing that obedience... Nobody that is here can deny how God has taken care of us. I mean EVERY detail. Before I moved here I had a few fears about moving so far away from everything and everyone I ever knew...there is a sense of safety being close to family kwim? My biggest fears were child support stopping, my car breaking down and what to do with my kids in the event of a medical emergency...if you know me you understand I HAVE to have a plan, a backup plan and sometimes a backup for the backup plan. Moving here meant totally relying on God and not having a plan.....talk about stepping out of my comfort zone! Still I had a peace because this IS God's will for us even if nobody understood why. In the beginning everything fell into place..I found a job and child support was still coming in but I think God wanted me to trust Him more. I had a few small tests along the way and then I had to stand up for what I believed. My soon to be ex husband quit his job and decided to relocate here. I was scared to death but I had to make a decision to believe that God was my provider...my Jehovah Jireh...not man...not my soon to be ex. I had to believe that AND make a decision that could cost me child support...and temporarily did. As you know he moved back to Florida but he was without a job for a month....Then my car that I bought right before I moved here broke down. I was scrambling to figure out what to do..I mean I CAN do some car repairs but I didn't have any tools and I knew this was something major. I was trying so hard to have faith and to trust that God had a plan..I mean REALLY hard... but this was my car...my way to work...the only transportation I have... I quoted all the scriptures and spoke the word of God to God....I prayed and prayed and then I cried. I was at a loss as to what I was going to do. I called my family and they said "let us know how that works out for you"...I felt SO alone and I think God knew and He put it on someones heart to call me right then and they reminded me that God was in control and really did have a plan. I hung up feeling better and then my church called and within minutes someone else was calling and my car was being towed. My church fixed my car, put gas in it and washed it for FREE. I didn't even know where my car was and didn't care because at that point I knew God had it all under control. I couldn't have felt any more blessed than I did right then...at least I didn't think I could. I have never seen a church love on someone like they have us. The only fear left was a medical emergency and if you read a few posts ago you know I just had surgery. I learned what my dear friends family meant when they said "we rally" because they did...they picked up my car and brought it home, picked up my kids, fed them, did laundry, kept them overnight, took them to school, went shopping for me and then some! I woke up after surgery to them standing around my bed that night and I couldn't have felt more loved than I did right then. My friend had stayed at the hospital with me and took care of all the little details and even called my family back home to let them know what was going on. My church then took over and delivered meals for lunch and dinner. I never asked for any of that and yet God was taking care of us in ways I never expected. God even took care of things I never thought of!!...I knew I couldn't afford much for Christmas this year. I also knew their father wasn't sending them anything either. My plan was to just keep the focus on the true meaning of Christmas....Instead of presents we would celebrate THE GIFT... I felt that my kids had already received a gift by seeing God work in our lives and answer prayers. God had a different plan and without me ever saying a word to my church they made sure my kids had an amazing Christmas and if that wasn't enough my prayer loop AND my infertility loop sent gifts for us. My kids were BEYOND blessed this year. They know that this Christmas was TOTALLY from God because Mom was busy keeping a roof over their head and I couldn't afford to go into debt for Christmas. God knew that and He provided. Isn't that amazing?? Isn't that just so God?? The best part of all of this is my kids have been talking about it and that has opened conversations about trusting God completely and with every aspect of our lives. I was able to tell them that even though moving here was hard if you seek Gods face and follow Him that He WILL take care of all the details. That is still the best gift my kids have received this year. I just hope and pray they remember this when God asks them to do something out of their comfort zone...I want them to remember 2006 not as the year that I left their father but as the year that God personally answered each one of our prayers and took care of us in ways I never asked or expected. I really am blessed and just so thankful that I serve a God that answers prayers.

Father help me to remember to count my blessings and look to the future because the past hurts too much...

Philippians 3:13-14 No, dear brothers and sisters, I am still not all I should be, but I am focusing all my energies on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I strain to reach the end of the race and receive the prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us up to heaven. (NLT)


Another Christmas Meme

I stole this from Paulette and needed an excuse to sit for a minute so here ya go lol

A little Christmas meme..............

What is guaranteed to make you smile over the holidays?

My children and they have already made me smile today! They are seeing the hand of God work in our lives like NEVER before and they are talking about it with each other!! I don't think there is anything that can make a Mom happier than listening to their kids say things like "wow God really IS supplying ALL of our needs" or "when we moved here I thought things would be a lot harder but God really has taken care of everything" or "why would someone do that if they have never met you?"...oh trust me my kids will NEVER forget this Christmas and how God took care of us!

What makes you weepy during the holiday?

This year? everything lol I guess most years looking at my children and their faces when they wake up on Christmas morning

How will you spend Christmas eve and Christmas day?

This year we will spend Christmas eve with a dear friend and her ILs and Christmas day with the same friend and her parents. I love them:-)

What was your most memorable Christmas and why?

Dec of 1989...it was 5 days after we got married...for those who just figured that out my 17th anniversary was yesterday and it was HARD. That Christmas was very memorable because...well, I JUST got married;-) We had a get together at my sisters house with wedding cake and everything.

Christmas letter's from friends, pro or con?

Pro I LOVE getting mail and Christmas letters rock because I get to read about the little things that happened that year. Helps to keep up with everyone:-)

In your home is Christmas more of a religous or secular observance?

Definitely religious..I have always tried to make sure the kids know what the true meaning of Christmas is and we usually have a Happy Birthday cake for Jesus. They know the Christmas story is about the birth of Jesus but the real miracle of Christmas is that the baby GREW UP:-D

What is your favorite Christmas Carol?

Come All Ye Faithful

What is your deepest prayer for the world at Christmas?

That everyone can have a close and personal relationship with Jesus. I don't know how I would have gotten through this last year without Him... I really don't...I am so beyond thankful that I serve a God that takes care of His children and loves them unconditionally.


Still Alive

Thanks for all the emails and well wishes...I am still alive just BUSY. Oh my word it is less than a week from Christmas and I haven't even started shopping!! Also in between recovering from surgery I have still been working...no rest for the single Mom;-) Thank God tomorrow is the last day of work until Jan! Gotta LOVE Christmas vacation:-) So if I don't post it is because I am hunched over at a store trying to finish shopping...yeah standing up straight is still hard but I am getting there.


Early Christmas Gift:-)

I had my gallbladder taken out last night lol Who would have thought I would be happy to be cut on?! But seriously the after surgery pain is NOTHING compared to what I was feeling. Plus I got the wonderful gift of spending the day with a friend, flowers from my church and I got out of cooking for a few days....yeah I am reaching but I am looking for the bright side;-) Now to find time to recover so I can go Christmas shopping.



In the last 4 months...can you believe it has already been 4 months??!!...anyway, in the last 4 months I have learned so many things about Oklahoma that are different from Florida;-) Here are a few things....

Sirens at noon on Saturday are NOT a cause for alarm..there is no need to stop in the middle of the expressway screaming "what it is?"

When they say windy they MEAN windy...like hurricane force winds without the water...please hold your kids hands. Oh and BE CAREFUL opening your car doors...goodness it could get ripped from your hands!

Some days it really IS necessary to run both the a/c and heater

Dressing in layers in not a suggestion

Trying to change lanes after it snows may prove difficult and you could go straight for a LONG time...don't panic because at some point somebody else has turned and you can too

Pushing a shopping cart through a parking lot full of ice and hold your kids hands is hard...when they offer help in the store TAKE IT!

White does not always equal snow...do not traumatize kids by telling them it is snow and dragging them out in the sleet to make "snow" angels...if it hurts go back in;-)

This one I learned just this morning...do NOT try to clean your car windows with the windshield washer fluid while you are driving and it is cold...it WILL freeze and you won't be able to see out the window. You will look like an idiot trying to stick your head out the window so you don't smash into the car in front of you.


Christmas Meme

I shamelessly stole this from "Merci"

1. Hot Chocolate or apple cider?


2. Turkey or Ham?

Ham but we usually have prime rib for Christmas

3. Do you get a fake or real-you-cut-it-yourself Christmas tree?

We have always had fake because I was worried about my oldest son's asthma.

4. Decorations on the outside of your house?

In Florida we had a lot of decorations on the outside...I like cheesy Christmas decorations so we had everything from too many lights to blow up reindeer and snowmen:-) What can I say? I like cheese;-)

5. Snowball fights or sledding?

I guess I would have to say snowball fights but we haven't been sledding so I have nothing to compare it too.

6. Do you enjoy going downtown shopping?

I HATE shopping!

7. Favorite Christmas song?

Oh Come All Ye Faithful...I love the part that says come let us adore Him:-) This is what Christmas is all about...

8. How do you feel about Christmas movies?

LOVE THEM! Again I like cheese so I love the Santa movies (with Tim Allen) and Elf and Christmas Vacation and of course all the hallmark ones that make me cry lol

9. When is it too early to start listening to Christmas music?

Before Thanksgiving:-P Usually after Thanksgiving dinner is cleaned up I want Christmas music playing and the tree going up. I LOVE this time of year!

10. Stockings before or after presents?

We have done both

11. Carolers, do you or do you not watch and listen to them?

I used to love doing this with the church I grew up in...I love hearing music so I enjoy listening to them

12. Go to someone else's house or they come to you?

We have done both but this year we are going to someone else's house

13. Do you read the Christmas Story? If so when?

Yes and on Christmas Eve

14. What do you do after presents and dinner?

Put Christmas stuff away....I am tired of it by now:-)

15. What is your favorite holiday smell?

The smells of goodies baking

16. Ice skating or walking around the mall?

Never been ice skating and I hate shopping

17. Do you open a present or presents on Christmas Eve, or wait until Christmas Day?

I like giving them new jammies on Christmas Eve so they look cute for Christmas pictures on Christmas morning;)

18. Favorite Christmas memory?

Loading the kids up in the van and picking up Starbucks and driving around to look at lights...I love looking at lights on a cold night with my venti white chocolate mocha with soy and no whip please. I don't have a special memory of just Christmas because every year there is something new that I love and want to remember forever.

19. Favorite part about winter?

This year? SNOW!

20. Ever been kissed under mistletoe?

Of course!

Tired Ramblings

I just came home from a wonderful night out with my church family...I am tired and feeling a little emotional but not in a bad way so I thought I would ramble on here...feel free to ignore me because I really should be sleeping lol I have seriously done something every night this week and I am EXHAUSTED! Ok so for those who have asked how I am doing emotionally here ya go......

This Road

A million miles away from anything familiar

a thousand places I would rather be

so I choke back the tears and try to find the bright side

though I find it hard to see beyond my suffering

in my heart I know your plan is so much bigger

but this small part is all that I can see

and I believe you haven't left me here to wander

still I can't help but ponder where you're leading me


and I ask why this road

why this way

and this load

tell me how far must I go till I see

till I know why this road

A million miles away from anything familiar

what was it like to be so far from home

though you came in love

the world misunderstood you

there must have been some days when you felt so alone

but you endured, cause there was joy before you

joy that came because you sacrificed

Since you gave yourself just to spend forever with me

surely I can trust you'll lead me through my darkest times

when I ask why....


From here I can not see

why you'd choose this path for me

but I don't have to understand to believe

that you know why

You know why this road

why this way and this load

you know how far I must go till I see

till I know why this road

When I moved here I listened to this song and thought it summed my feelings up pretty well...I KNEW this is where I was supposed to be but that didn't help me understand why or make it hurt less...I felt so alone at times and I wondered why a LOT. All I ever wanted was to be a wife and mother but my marriage was beyond saving....trust me I tried:*( I wasn't sure what the plan was but I am confident I am in God's will and He would make a way. I came completely on faith and without a job...you have to know you are in Gods will to do that! I had 3 children that I knew I would have to take care of alone but God opened doors and I had a job the day after they started school. A job that would allow me to be a full time parent and they wouldn't be alone or in daycare. That was a blessing. I also found a church within a month of moving here that has just blessed my socks off as my dear friend would say:-) I don't think I have personally been THIS happy in a LOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNG time. Still I was worried about the holidays and how hard they would be this year but so far I just feel blessed. I even celebrated a birthday yesterday as a single Mom and I got more than one cake;-) Sure I hurt at times but I am getting to a point where I am looking more at the future and less at the past and that has to be a good thing. I am growing so much closer to the Lord through all of this because He is all I have and I KNOW that is a good thing:-) I can't believe how much has happened in the last 4 months or how much *I* have changed. This Christmas won't be a huge toy fest like the ones before but my kids can tell you they have seen God's hand at work in our lives and THAT is the best gift I could ever give them. They have seen God work and they won't forget that anytime soon...So this Christmas we will celebrate THE GIFT...the reason for the season....this Christmas our gifts won't come from Toys R Us or with pretty packages and bows but will be about the One who is the greatest gift of all. I can't wait to celebrate this year with my children focusing on the true meaning of Christmas.


Boys lol

Tonight we are having dinner and my dd is telling us about her day...she has this thing for reading ONLY non-fiction books and she likes to tell us ALL about them:-)
Here is the conversation

DD-C did you know that Uranus is a gas giant?
C and B- :::::burst out laughing::::
B-Yeah C your anus is full of gas
DD-it is! Mom will you tell them uranus is a gas giant??
C-Yeah Mom tell us your anus is giant:::evil grin::::

It took everything not to laugh...gotta love kids:-P


Snow in Pictures

Before we moved here THIS was the only kind of snowflake my kids had ever seen:-) This is a prized possession of my dd from her Auntie

I was dying to see snow...I really was hoping it would snow when I came to visit in January but it was warm when I cameI finally got my wish and it came all the way to my front door:-)My cat thought that was cool and she would eat it lolMy dog didn't know what to think!My kids LOVED it...well, after it became real snow;-)The boys immediately had a snowball fight
My dd wanted to make snow angels...not to be confused with the sleet angels we made yesterday:-P

It really snowed!! Look at all of that snow!!

I am going stir crazy...imagine 3 kids in a little apt...wait 3 kids with LOTS of energy in a little apt BUT HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DRIVE IN THIS????



Edited to say that I was wrong..I was enjoying my ignorance but what you are seeing here isn't real snow..it is white so that threw me off...NOW it is really snowing. The kids like this better because the little ice things that were falling earlier actually hurt when they hit your face lol...go figure snowflakes are really soft and float :-P
It is really snowing!! I feel like a little kid lol This is SOOOO cool!! My first snow day!!!


Let It Snow

Oh the weather outside is frightful

But the fire is so delightful

And since we've no place to go Let It Snow! Let It Snow! Let It Snow!

Can you tell I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited!! My kids are thrilled and I promised to wake them up as soon as I see the first snowflake:-P WOOHOO I am gonna see snow!!


I have a teenager!! HOW did that happen???


Food, Fun and Fellowship

I just had my third Thankgiving dinner this year and I think I am officially finished with turkey products for another year:-) My friend is an amazing cook so I think I overdid it on the food cuz I am STILL stuffed! To be honest I wasn't sure how I was going to feel this year since it is my first away from my family and without my dh. Instead of being lonely I was blessed to be able to celebrate TWICE! Thursday I had people I barely know over for almost 9hrs and THAT was interesting to say the least lol Then today I was honored to be included in a friends Thanksgiving Day with her family. I also got to experience my first Bedlam game with diehard OU fans and OU WON!! That was actually fun and the best part of the whole evening was during this game....oh yeah I am going to tell the story:-P My friend was starting to get stressed towards the end of the game and kept moving around and at one point they showed an old play on TV and she thought it was one from today's game and started jumping up and down cheering...oh my gosh THAT was funny;-) I am STILL laughing! My kids had such a great time too and not one time have they mentioned Florida....So I made it through my first holiday as a single Mom and it wasn't that bad...ok it was a little rough but it wasn't lonely...For that I am BEYOND thankful.

Thank you Father for friends that help make this easier...for friends that remind you that there really IS good in this world...for friends that lift your spirit and ALWAYS point me back to You because You are the only one that can give me peace...thank you for answering my prayer...you knew what I needed and you provided....just like always...thank you Father for loving me that much...


This is the final picture of the tree and my beautiful children. Putting the stuff up without their Dad felt so weird and so wrong. I think if I can get through the holidays I will be ok but right now it just feels like someone is missing. The person that hung the lights is gone...I still have a stocking with his name on it...oh gosh so many things that become "tradition" are just gone...just like that...gone:-( The kids didn't even seem to notice and just got caught up in the excitement..Father I pray that I can just be like my kids and get caught up in the excitement and be thankful for all that I have and not what I am missing because this hurts...


I can't believe the holiday season is already here! This last year has been full of many many changes...exactly one year today I held my MIL and watched her take her last breath. That is a memory I don't think will go away. This year I also took my first plane trip EVER and visited a place I had never been and I did it all by myself:-) This year I made a huge decision to leave a 17yr marriage that wasn't healthy. This year I moved half way across the country with my 3 children to start a new life. I have had many ups and downs and days where I didn't know if the pain would ever go away. In that time I have learned a lot about me. God has stretched me in ways I didn't know I could be stretched. I have made new friends and started a new job. I have been humbled and blessed beyond measure. I have found a church that I love and that loves me and my children. I have had to admit to myself that my kids saw and knew more than I ever realized and then find the strength to put them in counseling and go myself. I have had to be honest with myself about my own issues and figure out ways to change them. It has been a hard road but I am still thankful for everything. I am thankful for Jesus and the fact that He died for me...He got what I deserved so that I could get what He deserved...THAT my friends IS love:-) I am thankful for my children that I love with ALL of my heart. I am beyond thankful for a dear sister friend that has stood by my side and listened to me cry and never judged me... "Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work: If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!" (Ecclesiastes 4:9-10)...I am thankful for a job that I really enjoy and the teenagers that make it fun. I am thankful that all my bills are paid because man is not my provider..God is:-) I truly am thankful and never take for granted that I have a roof over my head and a warm bed to sleep in or that my children never have to go to bed hungry. I am thankful that I had so many invitations for Thanksgiving Day that I didn't know who to say yes too! I am even thankful that I turned them down so I could cook for some people that didn't have anywhere to go. I am thankful that I am able to bless others in the same ways they have blessed me. I am thankful for so many things and each day I am striving to remember how thankful I am and not focus on all that is wrong in my world. God has a plan and I just need to REST:-) Relax in God's promises, Exalt the Lord who IS enough, Stand still in victory and Trust God's timing. Letting go is hard but I am finding it is worth it:-) Happy Thanksgiving!!


Christmas Trees

It is that time of year again to think about putting up a tree. The top picture is a picture of my "old" tree...It was a HUGE tree! I had to leave it behind when I moved because I just couldn't fit everything in the Uhaul...I figured I would buy a real tree this year but with my oldest sons allergies/asthma I decided against that. So last night I went to look at real fake trees and remembered they come with a pretty price tag too:-) So I settled for a 6 1/2 ft scrawny looking tree...kind of looks like the bottom picture...I guess now I need to look for the blanket to put around the bottom;-)


Church Again

I just realized I never updated ya'll on my church situation:-) Remember a couple of months ago I posted about my Church Woes? Well, I continued going to the AOG church and now it just feels like home. I can't imagine NOT going and I LOVE the preaching. I am getting so much out of it:-) I also love that the church shares property with the high school I work at...funny thing is I really didn't know the first time I went until the pastor mentioned the high school lol When I went outside I thought OMGosh that is the one I work at but they are on different streets so I didn't know....I told you I am directionally challenged! So the teens in the church are the same ones I see all week. I also just love the people. Today alone everyone wanted to make sure I had Thanksgiving plans and were all so willing to include me AND my 3 children that I was just amazed. I can't count the times back home we spent holidays alone BECAUSE I have children! I am the youngest of 7 and because I am the youngest I am the only one with LITTLE kids lol All their kids are grown and have kids of their own so they didn't include me because of things like... oh white carpet, houses that aren't child proofed or just wanting "adult" time...I am not as bitter as I sound but only share that to show you how TOUCHED I am that people would think to include me. I am so thankful that I have a "family" here...really really thankful:-) So I am overdo in telling you that I do have a church and I am grateful for the friends that I have made there. I am thankful for the little things like the phone calls when we miss a service to make sure we are ok and don't need anything...those things so touch my heart. I thought the holidays would be so lonely since my family is so far away but God has truly blessed me. God really IS good ALL the time:-D


Nine Things

Because I really have NOTHING to blog about I will share with you MY nine things that are weird...just stopping at nine will be hard:-P

1)I HATE black ink...I mean really can't stand using it...lately all the things I have to fill out require black ink and that makes me cringe.

2)I love music and I listen to it LOUDLY..probably to drown out my own voice because I have to sing along.

3)I can't STAND Elvis...no hate mail please:-)...his voice is like nails on a chalkboard to me.

4)I get lost all the time. My excuse here is I am new to Oklahoma but I grew up in Florida and still got lost.

5)I don't really understand football but I am trying. I figured I moved to a place where football is a religion that I HAVE to like it.

6)I love things to be clean and in order BUT if they are in a closet or drawer I don't care..I mean really don't care.

7)We quote Seinfeld as a family;-) Sad huh?

8)I refuse to wear glasses so I can't see half the time.

9)I hate shopping:-D I know most women love to go shopping but not me! I hate it and GASP I don't care about shoes either...see I really AM weird:-D


I am now the proud owner of MY first ice scraper:-) How cool is that??? I woke up to not only cold weather but icy windshields lol Winter is coming!! I can't WAIT to see the snow!! Sing with me....I'm dreaming of a white Christmas.....


Runny nose? Tired of blowing? Apparently THIS is the solution:-)


Veteran's Day

Yesterday started like any other day. I woke up and after sending the kids off to school I tried to call my bank back home...I kept getting a weird message with the "hours of operation" and I couldn't figure out why they would be closed on a Friday. It is a military bank but still! I went to work and there was an assembly and this student sang The National Anthem and it hit me like a ton of bricks...it was Veteran's Day! HOW could I forget? I have no excuse...I could tell you that back home Veteran's Day was a huge deal because I lived in a large military town but still I have NO excuse for forgetting. Half of my family made a career out of the military and once upon a time I wanted to join...they had this thing against asthma but I wanted to:-)...I get the reasons why people join and I am a proud American...but this year I didn't even vote because I haven't registered in Oklahoma...that was the first time since I was old enough to vote that I didn't. Oh the guilt:-( So today I have been sitting here reading and remembering about Vets and I ran across this post Ramblin' Educat: Loving Rome More I think this is wonderfully written and gave me chills...so I wanted to share it with ya'll


I can be changed by what happens to me
I refuse to be reduced by it....
Maya Angelou


The kids and I will be starting this tonight DivorceCare: Divorce Recovery Support Groups Am I ready? NO! I am doing this for the kids because I was thinking the whole cram it down and ignore your feelings method was working for me:-) God help me because I am NOT ready to face my feelings..I am not ready to admit how much this hurts...I am just not ready....Holidays almost seem like a cruel joke and now I have to do this. The things we do for our kids.....



If you don't already read The Crib Chick Go NOW and read this post! I literally laughed out loud this morning..oh that was funny! I think that song will be in my head all morning!


Help Save the McRib:-)

I am off work today and trying NOT to think so here is something to keep my mind occupied;-) As I was out and about this morning I saw a sign about the McRib...looks like they are going to discontinue it!! THEY CAN'T! I love the McRib and it is the ONLY thing at McDonald's that I really really like lol I do like the fries but as far as sandwiches go I am not a big fan...BUT once a year they bring back the McRib and the kids don't have to beg to go to McDonald's:-) So I am asking ya'll to PLEASE go and sign the petition to save the McRib....yes I really am trying NOT to think today lol First this website will tell you about the BPFAA and how this will effect them and their families...see you HAVE to do something!! The Boneless Pig Farmers are counting on you! You CAN make a difference!! Here is the petition McRib Farewell Tour II :-D


This is my middle childs head lol Remember the one that just got the cast off???!!!! Yepthat one! This happened at church last night..I swear this child is going to give me a head full of gray hair!! Thankfully the guy that heads the Royal Rangers is also a nurse so he fixed him right up. This has been the longest week in the history of weeks...I have the next 3 days off and I NEED it!


You can take the girl outta da hood but you can't take da hood outta the girl!

Geez what a week! Dh got here Sunday afternoon and left to go BACK to Florida this morning. Before he came he had wanted to live with me but I didn't want to fall back into the same routine if nothing had changed..I didn't come this far to go back to that...I deserve better and so do the kids. It took me a LONG time to realize that....Still I believe he thought I would change my mind because he came here withOUT reservations at a hotel OR a place to live. I didn't cave and after a couple of days of not convincing me to take him in he left to go back to Florida. He left this morning but not before the drama last night. Goodness in true redneck fashion we had a yelling match in the parking lot of my apartment complex. Yep I am officially white trash and have stooped to a new low. So that is the update...he is gone and our life will go on once again. This time he can't undo the damage. I tucked 3 crying children in bed last night and he can't take that back. Good thing they have a heavenly Father that will never leave them or forsake them:-)


I know it has been a week lol What can I say? my life is insane;-) Here is the play by play because I don't have time to answer ALL of the emails in my inbox lol Last week seems like a blur. My oldest has asthma and not just asthma but ASTHMA. He doesn't just have the kind you treat with an inhaler he has the kind that requires the nebulizer to be pulled out. Sometimes it gets so bad that I have to take him to the Dr and one time the DR called 911! Its a little freaky when a Dr calls 911 and your son is taken in an ambulance. Last week he had problems breathing so sleeping was a luxury.
I think Monday and Tuesday we did very little outside of the home.
Wed we went to church.
Thursday I had to pull him out of school but I had a meeting I couldn't get out of so a friend came over to babysit all of my kids.
Friday I had to pull him out again for neb treatments so I took him to the Dr for steroids.
Saturday he was doing much better. I had a million errands to run before their Daddy moved into town on Sunday...I will give you a minute to let that soak in:-)...Saturday I also had several inches cut off of my hair. It is SHORT for me. It was to the middle of my back and now it is just above my shoulders.
Sunday we all got up and went to church and then went to the store. The kids wanted to bake a cake for their Dad since today is his birthday. Oh wait I haven't told ya'll about all of that have I? The kids Dad decided that 1200 miles was too far so he quit his job and moved out here. He is staying in a hotel around the corner till he figures out the rest of his plan. For us it is life as normal and the kids have school and I have work...
Tonight (Monday) I have a meeting and I think dh is going to tag along.
Tomorrow night (Tuesday) is the Fall Festival at church.
Wed I have an appt after work and church at night.
Thursday I have a 2hr meeting after work and then a teacher conference after that.
Friday is still up in the air. I am scheduled to work but the kids are out of school so if dh can't watch them I have to take off work. I have no idea what I am doing this weekend. At some point I want to let dh be the parent and I want a night out withOUT kids:-) Ok so everyone can stop panicking I am fine...well, fine for me:-D


As most of you can see I have updated to the new version of Blogger. It has some new features and I would like to run one of the safety ones by you...I pretty much already know who is reading my blog because I have sitemeter even if you can't see it:-) I was thinking about making this blog "permission only" and I could invite you by your email address...the only problem is you would have to sign in to read it...is this something that you would mind doing? I know it is one extra step but I am asking because if I did that I could be a lot more open in my posts:-) Then I would have control over who was seeing what and my whole life wouldn't be out there for the whole world to see kwim So if you could email me or leave a comment and let me know what you think?...thanks! I haven't 100% decided but I thought I would ask your opinions first:-)


Remember this guy from Ghostbusters?? This is what I am going to look like this winter with a million layers of clothes on! It is ONLY Fall and we have seen our first freeze...yeah yeah I know that is nothing to ya'll but it is 88 degrees in my hometown right now! That I am used to! I was sooooo cold last night that I skipped church this morning. I didn't want to get out of bed!! I don't even want to leave the house lol I did have to run and get something this morning and I put on 2 sweaters and a jacket. As I am looking around people are in short sleeves..are these people insane?? Yesterday we had a wind advisory and the wind was blowing so hard I thought it would knock ME over! My oldest said he had never seen wind like that without a name attached to it lol he is referring to the tropical storms:-) I am sure I will get used to it and be one of those insane people with short sleeves on but right now OH. MY. WORD. it is COLD! I still love it here and wouldn't trade it for the world...so if you are in Oklahoma and you see this person with Florida tags on her car don't point and laugh when you see how overdressed her and her children are:-)


TV Show Meme

Got this from "Merci"'s blog..funny thing is I am so NOT a TV watcher but you wouldn't know that from this list lol Although some of these shows are OLD! Wow I had forgotten about a lot of them...talk about a walk down memory lane!

The instructions are simple: change the color and/or boldface the shows you've watched at least three complete episodes of, and Bold and Italicize a show if you're certain you've seen every episode of it.You can add up to three shows to the list, but keep them in alphabetical order.

3rd Rock from the Sun
7th Heaven
Aeon Flux
Alfred Hitchcock Presents
Alien Nation
Allo Allo
American Idol/Pop Idol/Canadian Idol/
Australian Idol
America's Next Top Model/Germany's Next Top Model
Arrested Development
Babylon 5
Babylon 5: Crusade
Battlestar Galactica (the old one)
Battlestar Galactica (the new one)
Beauty & the Beast
Beavis & Butthead
The Ben Stiller Show
Beverly Hills 90210
BJ and the Bear
Bosom Buddies
Boston Legal
Boy Meets World
Brady Bunch
Buck Rogers in the 25th Century
Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Bug Juice
Chappelle's Show
Charlie's Angels
China Beach
Commander in Chief
Cowboy Bebop
Crossing Jordan
CSI: Miami
Curb Your Enthusiasm
Dancing with the Stars
Danny Phantom
Dark Angel
Dark Skies
Davinci's Inquest
Dawson's Creek
Dead Like Me
Deadliest Catch
Degrassi: The Next Generation
Designing Women
Desperate Housewives
Dharma & Greg
Diff'rent Strokes
Doctor Who (new Who)
Doctor Who (series 1-26)
Dr. Phil
Due South
Dungeons and Dragons
Earth 2Earth - Final Conflict
Escape From Planet Earth
Everybody Loves Raymond
Facts of Life
Falcon Crest
Family Guy
Family Ties
Fantasy Island
Fawlty Towers
Flamingo Road
Full House
Get Smart
Gilligan's Island
Gilmore Girls
Gomer Pyle, U.S.M.C.
Green Wing
Grey's Anatomy
Growing Pains
Happy Days
Head of the Class
Hill Street Blues
Hogan's Heroes
Home Improvement
Homicide: Life on the Street
I Dream of Jeannie
I Love Lucy
Invader Zim
Iron Chef (Japan)Iron Chef (USA)Ironside
John Doe
Kath and Kim
Knight Rider
Knots Landing
La Femme Nikita
LA Law
Laverne and Shirley
Law & Order
Law & Order: Criminal Intent
Law & Order: SVU
Little House on the Prairie
Lizzie McGuire
Logan's Run
Lois and Clark: The New Adventures of Superman
Lost in Space
Love, American Style
Magnum P.I.
Malcolm in the Middle
Married...With Children
Melrose Place
Miami Vice
Mission Impossible
Mork & Mindy
Murphy Brown
My Family
My Favorite Martian
My Life as a Dog
My Mother the Car
My So-Called Life
My Three Sons
My Two Dads
Mysterious Cities of Gold
Night Court
Northern Exposure
One Tree Hill
Parker Lewis Can't Lose
Perfect Strangers
Perry Mason
Picket Fences
Pirates of Darkwater
Power Rangers
Prison Break
Project Blue Book ("Project UFO" in UK)
Project Runway
Quantum Leap
Queer As Folk (US)Queer asFolk (British)
Queer Eye For The Straight Guy
Remington Steele
Rescue Me
Road Rules
Samurai Jack
Sanford & Son
Saved by the Bell
Scarecrow and Mrs. King
Scooby-Doo Where Are You?
Seinfeld (this one deserved to be larger lol)
Sex and the City
Six Feet Under
Slings and Arrows
Small Wonder
So Weird
South Park
Space 1999
Spongebob Squarepants
Sports PERIOD! Monday Night Football, World Series, c'mon, what kind of TV do you think there is to watch nowdays, eh?
Sports Night
Square Pegs
St. Elsewhere
Star Trek
Star Trek: The Next Generation
Star Trek: Deep Space Nine
Star Trek: Voyager
Star Trek: Enterprise
Stargate Atlantis
Stargate SG-1
Teen Titans
That Girl
That 70's Show
That's So Raven
The 4400
The Addams Family
The Andy Griffith Show
The A-Team
The Avengers
The Beverly Hillbillies
The Bionic Woman
The Book of Daniel
The Colbert Report
The Cosby Show
The Daily Show
The Dead Zone
The Dick Van Dyke Show
The Dukes of Hazard
The Flintstones
The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air
The Golden Girls
The Greatest American Hero
The Jetsons
The L Word
The Love Boat
The Mary Tyler Moore Show
The Mighty Boosh
The Monkees
The Munsters
The Mythbusters
The O.C.
The Office (UK)
The Office (US)
The Outer Limits
The Pretender
The Prisoner
The Real World
The Shield
The Simpsons
The Six Million Dollar Man
The Sopranos
The Suite Life of Zack and Cody
The Twilight Zone
The Waltons
The West Wing
The Wild Wild West
The Wonder Years
The X-Files
Third Watch
Three's Company
Top Gear
Twin Peaks
Twitch City
Upstairs, Downstairs
Veronica Mars
What Not To Wear (US)What Not To Wear (UK)
Whose Line is it Anyway? (US)Whose Line is it Anyway? (UK)
Will & Grace
Wonder Woman
Xena: Warrior Princess
Young Hercules


My southern is showing today:-) Today is the first offical day of fall break...today I am wanting to take care of some things around the house that I have neglected so we are staying home..well, the trip to Wal-Mart does count but NOW we are home for the night;-) It is pretty chilly outside to ME...I know the folks here are laughing but right now in my hometown in Florida it is 82 degrees so a WINDY 55 is chilly. I don't know how long it will take me to get used to the wind but I do know I will probably cut all my hair off before winter is over lol One thing that cold weather does is make me want to cook. Not just baking but real southern cooking. So tonight for dinner I am cooking up a mess of greens with some extra turnip roots cuz we ALL love them, a big ole pot of beans cooked in pig parts:::big grin::::and some sweet cornbread to soak up the pot liquor...oh and for our belly washer we will have some real sweet tea...not this stuff they try to pass off as sweet tea in Oklahoma:-D Later tonight we will enjoy our first fire in the fireplace..I bought some wood in a bag so don't be too impressed...OH and we will watch Over the Hedge with some hot cocoa...Just a quiet night with the kids and I...something I think we have all needed...I only share because I just know how interested some of you are in the boring happenings in our day to day life;-)


I have two words for ya'll:-) FALL BREAK!! That is all I have to say about that lol I will see you all Monday! Oh wait I do have one more thing to say...yeah you know I can't just leave it at that...I want to thank you all for the prayers and encouraging emails. It really helps to know that others care and are praying....God truly is amazing and I really am doing fine! Thanks again!!


Guess what I did today?? I was in a twinkie eating contest lol Funny part is I don't even like twinkies but I don't back down to a challenge:-) I am also one of those weird people that can eat anything even if I don't like it..you would never know if you were a bad cook and I was just faking it lol Wait if I ask for the recipe it is because I DO like it so don't everyone panic at once:-) I only lost by one and to show my good sportmanship I smashed that one in the challengers face...yeah it was in fun so don't think I have lost my mind :-P It was so funny and I had twinkie cream up my nose from cramming them in my mouth..I thought I was going to choke cuz they are soooo dry...nasty little things:-P That and we were all laughing so hard! See why I like my job? Who else can go to work and enter a twinkie eating contest while being cheered on by hundreds of people. Go Twinkie Power;-)


Which are You?

THERE are two kinds of people on earth to-day;
Just two kinds of people, no more, I say.

Not the sinner and saint, for it's well understood,
The good are half bad, and the bad are half good.

Not the rich and the poor, for to rate a man's wealth,
You must first know the state of his conscience and health.

Not the humble and proud, for in life's little span,
Who puts on vain airs, is not counted a man.

Not the happy and sad, for the swift flying years
Bring each man his laughter and each man his tears.

No; the two kinds of people on earth I mean,
Are the people who lift, and the people who lean.

Wherever you go, you will find the earth's masses,
Are always divided in just these two classes.

And oddly enough, you will find too, I ween,
There's only one lifter to twenty who lean.

In which class are you? Are you easing the load,
Of overtaxed lifters, who toil down the road?

Or are you a leaner, who lets others share
Your portion of labor, and worry and care?

Ella Wheeler Wilcox


I am so glad that I serve a God that just loves me for me....even with all my faults and trust me there are many! I talk too much, I worry too much, I care too much..still God loves ME! Tonight that just hit how much:**) Some days I get worried about how things are going to work out and what tomorrow holds...I worry about the holidays and my kids being so far away from family. How will they feel? how will I afford Christmas gifts? Yet God is constantly showing me ways He is taking care of me....some are very hard for me because they involve other people and I am so not good at receiving. I am a much better giver. He is still so patient and loving and He hasn't given up on me! I want to get to that point that when something bad happens that I can just sit and wait to see how God is going to take care of it...He knows my needs before I even need them! Nothing surprises God but I am not there yet. I still worry. When something bad happens I still get upset and ask God why and how and all the details of His plan. Tonight I was just thinking about all the different worries I had THIS YEAR alone...the move, the marriage, the money to move, the car, the job, the kids, the school etc...HE had a plan all along. It may not have always been easy to see but later you could look back and see His hand in it. I am just amazed at how He HAS been here for me. I just feel sooooo thankful and blessed tonight. I also feel loved. I know that may be easy for some but for me that isn't an easy thing. So tonight I just want to THANK GOD for everything. I don't need to know WHAT tomorrow holds because HE holds my tomorrow. Maybe next time I won't stress out so much:-) If not there is always the time after that.. it is a good thing His mercies are new every morning:-)


It IS broken:-( This is ds2 with his new blue cast.


Sorry I haven't updated and thank to those who emailed to remind me;-) lol This week has just been insane. Wednesday started out a normal day and I left early to attend the "meet me at the flagpole" at the local high school here for prayer and music...it was such a blessing to see teenagers praising God in a PUBLIC high school! I went to a private Christian school growing up so doing stuff like that was the "norm"....for these kids to take a stand in a HUGE public school is HUGE to me and refreshing:**) ...Oh and the youth pastor from the church I have been visting was there...gotta love that!! Then I went to work and had an amazing morning. I work with other Christians and we end up singing and goofing off while working. I really LOVE my job which I know is a blessing in itself...how many people can say they love their job kwim? Things are going along like any other day and then my cell buzzes...it is a dear friend and my 9yo son has been injured at school. Being a SINGLE Mom slapped me in the face HARD:-( For the first time in my life as Mom someone else went to the school to pick up my son:**( I am beyond thankful that it is someone I love and trust but it was still so hard for me. I know that my family that is reading this just gasped because NOBODY has ever been allowed to get my kids from school...NOBODY other than my parents. She brought my son to my job and we took him to a little "doc in a box" for x-rays. Monday I am taking him to an Orthopedist for a second opinion. Right now he has his arm in a splint and his elbow and hand are really swollen:-( When my 9yo doesn't want to play video games he is hurting! So that is a glimpse into the life of this single Mom:-) It seems like when things are going great satan tries to knock me down...I AM learning to get up quicker and brush myself off but some days I just get tired and wonder why it has to be so hard....I am SOOOOO thankful that I serve an understanding God that loves me no matter how many times I fail. So today I am counting my blessings (there are many!!) and taking my kids to a local museum..oh yeah! for those who don't know today is National Museum Day and you can get in for free:-) Can't beat that price!! Plus I haven't been to the one here and it sounds better than sitting at home lol Hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend!!


46 Degrees in SEPTEMBER!!!

My kids are so confused lol They still don't understand how it is "winter" when we haven't had Christmas yet! I am just gonna say that 46 degrees in September is JUST WRONG! I wanted to see fall but 46??? I have been cooking at a nice 106degrees all summer and you give me 46?? I am gonna freeze this winter lol


Church Woes

I have been in Oklahoma for close to two months now and I haven't found a church...it is so frustrating because there is one on every corner lol I really tried to love the first one I went to visit because it was right down the street. I want that sense of community and I want my kids to meet other kids in the neighborhood. I tried to ignore that I hated the music portion and kept going until they started a series on the family...oh my word that was HARD to listen to:**( The second week into the series I literally got up and left crying. I just left the man I love with all my heart so the last thing I want to hear about it is the "perfect" family. I don't want to hear about how the man should lead the family in prayer and all the other things I never had. It was too painful. I started looking for something closer to what I went to in Florida. I don't have a particular denomination that I just cling to. I was raised..well, not exactly "raised" but I rode a bus to a Baptist church growing up lol As a young child I became very active in a Independent Fundamentalist Baptist Church with the whole list of rules that went with it...I am not knocking them because they kept me in line as a youngster when I could have been rebellious:-) Actually I did become a little rebellious at 19 and ended up marrying my dh lol But that is whole nother story lol Ok back to this story I quit going to church completely and jumped into married life and working and trying to have babies. Somewhere in there I became broken and needed God..I think it was in between our losses of pregnancies and my marriage falling apart...this was 10yrs ago so it wasn't the "end" of my marriage but the beginning of major problems. I started going with my SIL to a non-denominational church and I LOVED it. I realized for the first time it wasn't about a religion or a set of rules it was about a relationship with Jesus Christ...that changed my life and my way of thinking. Once again I stopped going to church...at this point my only excuse was I was tired of getting the kids ready to go to church and taking them alone...I nursed mine so I often had to leave the service to feed them and my oldest hated being away from me...it wasn't a pleasant experience. Then several years ago I realized I need God and I had to quit choosing my dh over Him. There were people God had placed in my life (you know who you are) that had something I wanted...Jesus would just shine SOOOO brightly from them and I missed that..I knew I had it once and I longed to have that again. So I started going again. This time I started attending an Assembly of God...I won't say I agree with everything they believe but I know it was where God wanted me...The church was huge and played a large role in our community and I loved it. I want something like that again.... I called my old church and they found an AOG around the corner from me and I went to visit. The music..oh how do I explain the music...I LOVED the music and part of my worship is through music. I have always always listened to Christian music and even through my "rebellious" stage I couldn't listen to stuff that wasn't uplifting...music just effects me. I may not be able to sing but I still love it lol I enjoyed the music and the preaching part BUT I can't seem to find a SS class that I fit in. The church is big and I know from experience you need to be in a small group somewhere to really get to know people. I need to be a part of a church and a part of the body...I need to be able to do for others. Still where do I fit in? I can't attend a couples class because I am not a couple...I can't attend the one without a name sopeoplelikemecanfeelcomfortable because 90% of them are way older than me and I didn't like the singles class because it was only 2 women and more like a social hour. I want teaching. I NEED teaching. So I am going back but only to the main service until I can find something. The kids LOVE it but is that because they are just playing? I hate looking for a church and I know that God wanted me in Oklahoma.... I know He has a church picked out for me but how do I find it with churches EVERYWHERE? How can I attend a single class when I have no desire to hook up with other single men and they seem more like a dating service IME. Yes, I am a single Mom but I am a Mom that just wants to take care of her children and I am NOT looking for a replacement for the man I love. So please join me in prayer that I can find the perfect church for my family I would appreciate it:-)


Warning this is gross so if you are eating you might want to wait to read this lol I have a weak tummy when it comes to certain things :-P I can handle blood all day long but boogers and poop are a whole nother story. I WILL vomit. Also I guess to understand this story you have to know my cat and dog like the trash can so I have to keep it locked in the bathroom while we are gone. Today the trash was in the bathroom but a little nameless child left the door open. We came home to trash everywhere.....ok this was part of why I wanted to clean today lol ANYWAY, I was cleaning the boys bathroom and this little blob of brown stuff was on the tile....I was soGROSSED out! How could the boys miss the toilet while pooping?? how is that possible?? I immediately started gagging and trying not to vomit...as I was cleaning it the blob smeared which immediately triggered the vomit reflex...yuck! Then the smell hit me! Would you believe it was just PEANUT BUTTER?? lol All that drama over peanut butter:-P So that was my exciting Friday night:-D Makes being a single Mom look so glamorous doesn't it??


WOW! I thought I could just disappear and nobody would really notice but gosh I was wrong lol I have been pleasantly surprised with the emails I have received!! How sweet are ya'll??!! It is so great to know that others are praying for me and care about what is going on:-) That so touches my heart!! I guess I WILL update but because I have become increasingly concerned with internet safety I will leave my childrens names off and I might be vague about location:-) Oklahoma is pretty big so that is all you need to know lol The kids are doing great and my dd just had her 7th b-day. I wanted so much to make her b-day special since it would be her first here but unfortunately I was sick...really sick:-/ It is hard to be a single Mom and sick!! I literally laid on the couch for 2 days and if it wasn't for my dear friends Mom my kids would have had cereal for dinner two nights instead of one lol Her Mama also baked my dd a cake and brought cookies to her school so the day wasn't totally ruined. The kids Daddy flew in the day after and spent a few days with them. I took that opportunity to see a Dr and got meds for the pneumonia I had...fun times lol I had a party for her at Chuck E Cheese the following week to make up for it:-) The kids are also doing great in school and I love that the teachers email ya with updates. I am SOOOO impressed with the Oklahoma school system and I knew on paper it looked good but now I can say from experience. I also love my job and how many people can say that?? I work while my kids are in school so I can still do all the Mom things that are needed. I feel blessed that although I am a single Mom I am able to work while they are in school and I have school holidays off;-) God has really taken care of us and I am so blessed!


Just to give you something to read:-)
Here are a few of my favorite blogs

"Merci" My favorite person in the whole wide world and an IRL friend:-) Yeah I am blessed!
The Crib Chick very funny "chick" who keeps me laughing
inexorably loved an18 yr old that just blesses my heart with her love for Christ
Shalee's just funny
BooMama with her I never know if I will laugh or cry and I usually end up doing both!
Rocks In My Dryer Shannon doesn't need an introduction
All the blessings My faithful encourager
Brian Briscoe Little boy I am praying for with cancer...he has the SWEETEST Mama ever!
Blogging With
Christian Women Online
some of my favorite bloggers are here

Ok that is just a few but it will give you something to read:-)
Sorry to disappear without an explanation...I won't be updating my blog anymore BUT my email is always open...My email address is in my profile:-) Thank you all for your prayers over these last few months. I appreciate your support more than you know!!