Father help me to remember to count my blessings and look to the future because the past hurts too much...
Philippians 3:13-14 No, dear brothers and sisters, I am still not all I should be, but I am focusing all my energies on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I strain to reach the end of the race and receive the prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us up to heaven. (NLT)
A little Christmas meme..............
What is guaranteed to make you smile over the holidays?
My children and they have already made me smile today! They are seeing the hand of God work in our lives like NEVER before and they are talking about it with each other!! I don't think there is anything that can make a Mom happier than listening to their kids say things like "wow God really IS supplying ALL of our needs" or "when we moved here I thought things would be a lot harder but God really has taken care of everything" or "why would someone do that if they have never met you?"...oh trust me my kids will NEVER forget this Christmas and how God took care of us!
What makes you weepy during the holiday?
This year? everything lol I guess most years looking at my children and their faces when they wake up on Christmas morning
How will you spend Christmas eve and Christmas day?
This year we will spend Christmas eve with a dear friend and her ILs and Christmas day with the same friend and her parents. I love them:-)
What was your most memorable Christmas and why?
Dec of 1989...it was 5 days after we got married...for those who just figured that out my 17th anniversary was yesterday and it was HARD. That Christmas was very memorable because...well, I JUST got married;-) We had a get together at my sisters house with wedding cake and everything.
Christmas letter's from friends, pro or con?
Pro I LOVE getting mail and Christmas letters rock because I get to read about the little things that happened that year. Helps to keep up with everyone:-)
In your home is Christmas more of a religous or secular observance?
Definitely religious..I have always tried to make sure the kids know what the true meaning of Christmas is and we usually have a Happy Birthday cake for Jesus. They know the Christmas story is about the birth of Jesus but the real miracle of Christmas is that the baby GREW UP:-D
What is your favorite Christmas Carol?
Come All Ye Faithful
What is your deepest prayer for the world at Christmas?
That everyone can have a close and personal relationship with Jesus. I don't know how I would have gotten through this last year without Him... I really don't...I am so beyond thankful that I serve a God that takes care of His children and loves them unconditionally.
Sirens at noon on Saturday are NOT a cause for alarm..there is no need to stop in the middle of the expressway screaming "what it is?"
When they say windy they MEAN windy...like hurricane force winds without the water...please hold your kids hands. Oh and BE CAREFUL opening your car doors...goodness it could get ripped from your hands!
Some days it really IS necessary to run both the a/c and heater
Dressing in layers in not a suggestion
Trying to change lanes after it snows may prove difficult and you could go straight for a LONG time...don't panic because at some point somebody else has turned and you can too
Pushing a shopping cart through a parking lot full of ice and hold your kids hands is hard...when they offer help in the store TAKE IT!
White does not always equal snow...do not traumatize kids by telling them it is snow and dragging them out in the sleet to make "snow" angels...if it hurts go back in;-)
This one I learned just this morning...do NOT try to clean your car windows with the windshield washer fluid while you are driving and it is cold...it WILL freeze and you won't be able to see out the window. You will look like an idiot trying to stick your head out the window so you don't smash into the car in front of you.
1. Hot Chocolate or apple cider?
2. Turkey or Ham?
Ham but we usually have prime rib for Christmas
3. Do you get a fake or real-you-cut-it-yourself Christmas tree?
We have always had fake because I was worried about my oldest son's asthma.
4. Decorations on the outside of your house?
In Florida we had a lot of decorations on the outside...I like cheesy Christmas decorations so we had everything from too many lights to blow up reindeer and snowmen:-) What can I say? I like cheese;-)
5. Snowball fights or sledding?
I guess I would have to say snowball fights but we haven't been sledding so I have nothing to compare it too.
6. Do you enjoy going downtown shopping?
I HATE shopping!
7. Favorite Christmas song?
Oh Come All Ye Faithful...I love the part that says come let us adore Him:-) This is what Christmas is all about...
8. How do you feel about Christmas movies?
LOVE THEM! Again I like cheese so I love the Santa movies (with Tim Allen) and Elf and Christmas Vacation and of course all the hallmark ones that make me cry lol
9. When is it too early to start listening to Christmas music?
Before Thanksgiving:-P Usually after Thanksgiving dinner is cleaned up I want Christmas music playing and the tree going up. I LOVE this time of year!
10. Stockings before or after presents?
We have done both
11. Carolers, do you or do you not watch and listen to them?
I used to love doing this with the church I grew up in...I love hearing music so I enjoy listening to them
12. Go to someone else's house or they come to you?
We have done both but this year we are going to someone else's house
13. Do you read the Christmas Story? If so when?
Yes and on Christmas Eve
14. What do you do after presents and dinner?
Put Christmas stuff away....I am tired of it by now:-)
15. What is your favorite holiday smell?
The smells of goodies baking
16. Ice skating or walking around the mall?
Never been ice skating and I hate shopping
17. Do you open a present or presents on Christmas Eve, or wait until Christmas Day?
I like giving them new jammies on Christmas Eve so they look cute for Christmas pictures on Christmas morning;)
18. Favorite Christmas memory?
Loading the kids up in the van and picking up Starbucks and driving around to look at lights...I love looking at lights on a cold night with my venti white chocolate mocha with soy and no whip please. I don't have a special memory of just Christmas because every year there is something new that I love and want to remember forever.
19. Favorite part about winter?
This year? SNOW!
20. Ever been kissed under mistletoe?
A million miles away from anything familiar
When I moved here I listened to this song and thought it summed my feelings up pretty well...I KNEW this is where I was supposed to be but that didn't help me understand why or make it hurt less...I felt so alone at times and I wondered why a LOT. All I ever wanted was to be a wife and mother but my marriage was beyond saving....trust me I tried:*( I wasn't sure what the plan was but I am confident I am in God's will and He would make a way. I came completely on faith and without a job...you have to know you are in Gods will to do that! I had 3 children that I knew I would have to take care of alone but God opened doors and I had a job the day after they started school. A job that would allow me to be a full time parent and they wouldn't be alone or in daycare. That was a blessing. I also found a church within a month of moving here that has just blessed my socks off as my dear friend would say:-) I don't think I have personally been THIS happy in a LOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNG time. Still I was worried about the holidays and how hard they would be this year but so far I just feel blessed. I even celebrated a birthday yesterday as a single Mom and I got more than one cake;-) Sure I hurt at times but I am getting to a point where I am looking more at the future and less at the past and that has to be a good thing. I am growing so much closer to the Lord through all of this because He is all I have and I KNOW that is a good thing:-) I can't believe how much has happened in the last 4 months or how much *I* have changed. This Christmas won't be a huge toy fest like the ones before but my kids can tell you they have seen God's hand at work in our lives and THAT is the best gift I could ever give them. They have seen God work and they won't forget that anytime soon...So this Christmas we will celebrate THE GIFT...the reason for the season....this Christmas our gifts won't come from Toys R Us or with pretty packages and bows but will be about the One who is the greatest gift of all. I can't wait to celebrate this year with my children focusing on the true meaning of Christmas.
Here is the conversation
DD-C did you know that Uranus is a gas giant?
C and B- :::::burst out laughing::::
B-Yeah C your anus is full of gas
DD-it is! Mom will you tell them uranus is a gas giant??
C-Yeah Mom tell us your anus is giant:::evil grin::::
It took everything not to laugh...gotta love kids:-P
My dd wanted to make snow angels...not to be confused with the sleet angels we made yesterday:-P
It really snowed!! Look at all of that snow!!
I am going stir crazy...imagine 3 kids in a little apt...wait 3 kids with LOTS of energy in a little apt BUT HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DRIVE IN THIS????
IN ADDITION TO THE ICE AND SNOW... WIND AND COLD WILL COMBINE TO DROP WIND CHILLS TO BETWEEN ZERO AND 10 ABOVE ZERO LATER TONIGHT AND THURSDAY. BLUSTERY NORTH WINDS WILL LIKELY RESULT IN CONSIDERABLE BLOWING AND DRIFTING SNOW.
Thank you Father for friends that help make this easier...for friends that remind you that there really IS good in this world...for friends that lift your spirit and ALWAYS point me back to You because You are the only one that can give me peace...thank you for answering my prayer...you knew what I needed and you provided....just like always...thank you Father for loving me that much...
This is the final picture of the tree and my beautiful children. Putting the stuff up without their Dad felt so weird and so wrong. I think if I can get through the holidays I will be ok but right now it just feels like someone is missing. The person that hung the lights is gone...I still have a stocking with his name on it...oh gosh so many things that become "tradition" are just gone...just like that...gone:-( The kids didn't even seem to notice and just got caught up in the excitement..Father I pray that I can just be like my kids and get caught up in the excitement and be thankful for all that I have and not what I am missing because this hurts...
1)I HATE black ink...I mean really can't stand using it...lately all the things I have to fill out require black ink and that makes me cringe.
2)I love music and I listen to it LOUDLY..probably to drown out my own voice because I have to sing along.
3)I can't STAND Elvis...no hate mail please:-)...his voice is like nails on a chalkboard to me.
4)I get lost all the time. My excuse here is I am new to Oklahoma but I grew up in Florida and still got lost.
5)I don't really understand football but I am trying. I figured I moved to a place where football is a religion that I HAVE to like it.
6)I love things to be clean and in order BUT if they are in a closet or drawer I don't care..I mean really don't care.
7)We quote Seinfeld as a family;-) Sad huh?
8)I refuse to wear glasses so I can't see half the time.
9)I hate shopping:-D I know most women love to go shopping but not me! I hate it and GASP I don't care about shoes either...see I really AM weird:-D
This is my middle childs head lol Remember the one that just got the cast off???!!!! Yepthat one! This happened at church last night..I swear this child is going to give me a head full of gray hair!! Thankfully the guy that heads the Royal Rangers is also a nurse so he fixed him right up. This has been the longest week in the history of weeks...I have the next 3 days off and I NEED it!
Geez what a week! Dh got here Sunday afternoon and left to go BACK to Florida this morning. Before he came he had wanted to live with me but I didn't want to fall back into the same routine if nothing had changed..I didn't come this far to go back to that...I deserve better and so do the kids. It took me a LONG time to realize that....Still I believe he thought I would change my mind because he came here withOUT reservations at a hotel OR a place to live. I didn't cave and after a couple of days of not convincing me to take him in he left to go back to Florida. He left this morning but not before the drama last night. Goodness in true redneck fashion we had a yelling match in the parking lot of my apartment complex. Yep I am officially white trash and have stooped to a new low. So that is the update...he is gone and our life will go on once again. This time he can't undo the damage. I tucked 3 crying children in bed last night and he can't take that back. Good thing they have a heavenly Father that will never leave them or forsake them:-)
I think Monday and Tuesday we did very little outside of the home.
Wed we went to church.
Thursday I had to pull him out of school but I had a meeting I couldn't get out of so a friend came over to babysit all of my kids.
Friday I had to pull him out again for neb treatments so I took him to the Dr for steroids.
Saturday he was doing much better. I had a million errands to run before their Daddy moved into town on Sunday...I will give you a minute to let that soak in:-)...Saturday I also had several inches cut off of my hair. It is SHORT for me. It was to the middle of my back and now it is just above my shoulders.
Sunday we all got up and went to church and then went to the store. The kids wanted to bake a cake for their Dad since today is his birthday. Oh wait I haven't told ya'll about all of that have I? The kids Dad decided that 1200 miles was too far so he quit his job and moved out here. He is staying in a hotel around the corner till he figures out the rest of his plan. For us it is life as normal and the kids have school and I have work...
Tonight (Monday) I have a meeting and I think dh is going to tag along.
Tomorrow night (Tuesday) is the Fall Festival at church.
Wed I have an appt after work and church at night.
Thursday I have a 2hr meeting after work and then a teacher conference after that.
Friday is still up in the air. I am scheduled to work but the kids are out of school so if dh can't watch them I have to take off work. I have no idea what I am doing this weekend. At some point I want to let dh be the parent and I want a night out withOUT kids:-) Ok so everyone can stop panicking I am fine...well, fine for me:-D
Remember this guy from Ghostbusters?? This is what I am going to look like this winter with a million layers of clothes on! It is ONLY Fall and we have seen our first freeze...yeah yeah I know that is nothing to ya'll but it is 88 degrees in my hometown right now! That I am used to! I was sooooo cold last night that I skipped church this morning. I didn't want to get out of bed!! I don't even want to leave the house lol I did have to run and get something this morning and I put on 2 sweaters and a jacket. As I am looking around people are in short sleeves..are these people insane?? Yesterday we had a wind advisory and the wind was blowing so hard I thought it would knock ME over! My oldest said he had never seen wind like that without a name attached to it lol he is referring to the tropical storms:-) I am sure I will get used to it and be one of those insane people with short sleeves on but right now OH. MY. WORD. it is COLD! I still love it here and wouldn't trade it for the world...so if you are in Oklahoma and you see this person with Florida tags on her car don't point and laugh when you see how overdressed her and her children are:-)
Got this from "Merci"'s blog..funny thing is I am so NOT a TV watcher but you wouldn't know that from this list lol Although some of these shows are OLD! Wow I had forgotten about a lot of them...talk about a walk down memory lane!
The instructions are simple: change the color and/or boldface the shows you've watched at least three complete episodes of, and Bold and Italicize a show if you're certain you've seen every episode of it.You can add up to three shows to the list, but keep them in alphabetical order.
3rd Rock from the Sun
Alfred Hitchcock Presents
American Idol/Pop Idol/Canadian Idol/
America's Next Top Model/Germany's Next Top Model
Babylon 5: Crusade
Battlestar Galactica (the old one)
Battlestar Galactica (the new one)
Beauty & the Beast
Beavis & Butthead
The Ben Stiller Show
Beverly Hills 90210
BJ and the Bear
Boy Meets World
Buck Rogers in the 25th Century
Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Commander in Chief
Curb Your Enthusiasm
Dancing with the Stars
Dead Like Me
Degrassi: The Next Generation
Dharma & Greg
Doctor Who (new Who)
Doctor Who (series 1-26)
Dungeons and Dragons
Earth 2Earth - Final Conflict
Escape From Planet Earth
Everybody Loves Raymond
Facts of Life
Gomer Pyle, U.S.M.C.
Head of the Class
Hill Street Blues
Homicide: Life on the Street
I Dream of Jeannie
I Love Lucy
Iron Chef (Japan)Iron Chef (USA)Ironside
Kath and Kim
La Femme Nikita
Laverne and Shirley
Law & Order
Law & Order: Criminal Intent
Law & Order: SVU
Little House on the Prairie
Lois and Clark: The New Adventures of Superman
Lost in Space
Love, American Style
Malcolm in the Middle
Mork & Mindy
My Favorite Martian
My Life as a Dog
My Mother the Car
My So-Called Life
My Three Sons
My Two Dads
Mysterious Cities of Gold
One Tree Hill
Parker Lewis Can't Lose
Pirates of Darkwater
Project Blue Book ("Project UFO" in UK)
Queer As Folk (US)Queer asFolk (British)
Queer Eye For The Straight Guy
Sanford & Son
Saved by the Bell
Scarecrow and Mrs. King
Scooby-Doo Where Are You?
Seinfeld (this one deserved to be larger lol)
Sex and the City
Six Feet Under
Slings and Arrows
Sports PERIOD! Monday Night Football, World Series, c'mon, what kind of TV do you think there is to watch nowdays, eh?
Star Trek: The Next Generation
Star Trek: Deep Space Nine
Star Trek: Voyager
Star Trek: Enterprise
That 70's Show
That's So Raven
The Addams Family
The Andy Griffith Show
The Beverly Hillbillies
The Bionic Woman
The Book of Daniel
The Colbert Report
The Cosby Show
The Daily Show
The Dead Zone
The Dick Van Dyke Show
The Dukes of Hazard
The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air
The Golden Girls
The Greatest American Hero
The L Word
The Love Boat
The Mary Tyler Moore Show
The Mighty Boosh
The Office (UK)
The Office (US)
The Outer Limits
The Real World
The Six Million Dollar Man
The Suite Life of Zack and Cody
The Twilight Zone
The West Wing
The Wild Wild West
The Wonder Years
What Not To Wear (US)What Not To Wear (UK)
Whose Line is it Anyway? (US)Whose Line is it Anyway? (UK)
Will & Grace
Xena: Warrior Princess
Guess what I did today?? I was in a twinkie eating contest lol Funny part is I don't even like twinkies but I don't back down to a challenge:-) I am also one of those weird people that can eat anything even if I don't like it..you would never know if you were a bad cook and I was just faking it lol Wait if I ask for the recipe it is because I DO like it so don't everyone panic at once:-) I only lost by one and to show my good sportmanship I smashed that one in the challengers face...yeah it was in fun so don't think I have lost my mind :-P It was so funny and I had twinkie cream up my nose from cramming them in my mouth..I thought I was going to choke cuz they are soooo dry...nasty little things:-P That and we were all laughing so hard! See why I like my job? Who else can go to work and enter a twinkie eating contest while being cheered on by hundreds of people. Go Twinkie Power;-)
THERE are two kinds of people on earth to-day;
Just two kinds of people, no more, I say.
Not the sinner and saint, for it's well understood,
The good are half bad, and the bad are half good.
Not the rich and the poor, for to rate a man's wealth,
You must first know the state of his conscience and health.
Not the humble and proud, for in life's little span,
Who puts on vain airs, is not counted a man.
Not the happy and sad, for the swift flying years
Bring each man his laughter and each man his tears.
No; the two kinds of people on earth I mean,
Are the people who lift, and the people who lean.
Wherever you go, you will find the earth's masses,
Are always divided in just these two classes.
And oddly enough, you will find too, I ween,
There's only one lifter to twenty who lean.
In which class are you? Are you easing the load,
Of overtaxed lifters, who toil down the road?
Or are you a leaner, who lets others share
Your portion of labor, and worry and care?
Ella Wheeler Wilcox
My kids are so confused lol They still don't understand how it is "winter" when we haven't had Christmas yet! I am just gonna say that 46 degrees in September is JUST WRONG! I wanted to see fall but 46??? I have been cooking at a nice 106degrees all summer and you give me 46?? I am gonna freeze this winter lol
I have been in Oklahoma for close to two months now and I haven't found a church...it is so frustrating because there is one on every corner lol I really tried to love the first one I went to visit because it was right down the street. I want that sense of community and I want my kids to meet other kids in the neighborhood. I tried to ignore that I hated the music portion and kept going until they started a series on the family...oh my word that was HARD to listen to:**( The second week into the series I literally got up and left crying. I just left the man I love with all my heart so the last thing I want to hear about it is the "perfect" family. I don't want to hear about how the man should lead the family in prayer and all the other things I never had. It was too painful. I started looking for something closer to what I went to in Florida. I don't have a particular denomination that I just cling to. I was raised..well, not exactly "raised" but I rode a bus to a Baptist church growing up lol As a young child I became very active in a Independent Fundamentalist Baptist Church with the whole list of rules that went with it...I am not knocking them because they kept me in line as a youngster when I could have been rebellious:-) Actually I did become a little rebellious at 19 and ended up marrying my dh lol But that is whole nother story lol Ok back to this story I quit going to church completely and jumped into married life and working and trying to have babies. Somewhere in there I became broken and needed God..I think it was in between our losses of pregnancies and my marriage falling apart...this was 10yrs ago so it wasn't the "end" of my marriage but the beginning of major problems. I started going with my SIL to a non-denominational church and I LOVED it. I realized for the first time it wasn't about a religion or a set of rules it was about a relationship with Jesus Christ...that changed my life and my way of thinking. Once again I stopped going to church...at this point my only excuse was I was tired of getting the kids ready to go to church and taking them alone...I nursed mine so I often had to leave the service to feed them and my oldest hated being away from me...it wasn't a pleasant experience. Then several years ago I realized I need God and I had to quit choosing my dh over Him. There were people God had placed in my life (you know who you are) that had something I wanted...Jesus would just shine SOOOO brightly from them and I missed that..I knew I had it once and I longed to have that again. So I started going again. This time I started attending an Assembly of God...I won't say I agree with everything they believe but I know it was where God wanted me...The church was huge and played a large role in our community and I loved it. I want something like that again.... I called my old church and they found an AOG around the corner from me and I went to visit. The music..oh how do I explain the music...I LOVED the music and part of my worship is through music. I have always always listened to Christian music and even through my "rebellious" stage I couldn't listen to stuff that wasn't uplifting...music just effects me. I may not be able to sing but I still love it lol I enjoyed the music and the preaching part BUT I can't seem to find a SS class that I fit in. The church is big and I know from experience you need to be in a small group somewhere to really get to know people. I need to be a part of a church and a part of the body...I need to be able to do for others. Still where do I fit in? I can't attend a couples class because I am not a couple...I can't attend the one without a name sopeoplelikemecanfeelcomfortable because 90% of them are way older than me and I didn't like the singles class because it was only 2 women and more like a social hour. I want teaching. I NEED teaching. So I am going back but only to the main service until I can find something. The kids LOVE it but is that because they are just playing? I hate looking for a church and I know that God wanted me in Oklahoma.... I know He has a church picked out for me but how do I find it with churches EVERYWHERE? How can I attend a single class when I have no desire to hook up with other single men and they seem more like a dating service IME. Yes, I am a single Mom but I am a Mom that just wants to take care of her children and I am NOT looking for a replacement for the man I love. So please join me in prayer that I can find the perfect church for my family I would appreciate it:-)
Here are a few of my favorite blogs
"Merci" My favorite person in the whole wide world and an IRL friend:-) Yeah I am blessed!
The Crib Chick very funny "chick" who keeps me laughing
inexorably loved an18 yr old that just blesses my heart with her love for Christ
Shalee's just funny
BooMama with her I never know if I will laugh or cry and I usually end up doing both!
Rocks In My Dryer Shannon doesn't need an introduction
All the blessings My faithful encourager
Brian Briscoe Little boy I am praying for with cancer...he has the SWEETEST Mama ever!
Christian Women Online some of my favorite bloggers are here
Ok that is just a few but it will give you something to read:-)