11/22/2006


I can't believe the holiday season is already here! This last year has been full of many many changes...exactly one year today I held my MIL and watched her take her last breath. That is a memory I don't think will go away. This year I also took my first plane trip EVER and visited a place I had never been and I did it all by myself:-) This year I made a huge decision to leave a 17yr marriage that wasn't healthy. This year I moved half way across the country with my 3 children to start a new life. I have had many ups and downs and days where I didn't know if the pain would ever go away. In that time I have learned a lot about me. God has stretched me in ways I didn't know I could be stretched. I have made new friends and started a new job. I have been humbled and blessed beyond measure. I have found a church that I love and that loves me and my children. I have had to admit to myself that my kids saw and knew more than I ever realized and then find the strength to put them in counseling and go myself. I have had to be honest with myself about my own issues and figure out ways to change them. It has been a hard road but I am still thankful for everything. I am thankful for Jesus and the fact that He died for me...He got what I deserved so that I could get what He deserved...THAT my friends IS love:-) I am thankful for my children that I love with ALL of my heart. I am beyond thankful for a dear sister friend that has stood by my side and listened to me cry and never judged me... "Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work: If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!" (Ecclesiastes 4:9-10)...I am thankful for a job that I really enjoy and the teenagers that make it fun. I am thankful that all my bills are paid because man is not my provider..God is:-) I truly am thankful and never take for granted that I have a roof over my head and a warm bed to sleep in or that my children never have to go to bed hungry. I am thankful that I had so many invitations for Thanksgiving Day that I didn't know who to say yes too! I am even thankful that I turned them down so I could cook for some people that didn't have anywhere to go. I am thankful that I am able to bless others in the same ways they have blessed me. I am thankful for so many things and each day I am striving to remember how thankful I am and not focus on all that is wrong in my world. God has a plan and I just need to REST:-) Relax in God's promises, Exalt the Lord who IS enough, Stand still in victory and Trust God's timing. Letting go is hard but I am finding it is worth it:-) Happy Thanksgiving!!

1 comment:

Paul said...

Happy Thanksgiving. If it doesn't kill you it will make you stronger. You will survive. Hang in there!