I was tagged

I was tagged by my favorite person in the world Merci

1. Name someone who made you smile today?

My kids:) Did I tell you they were home? ;-) YAY!


2. What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?

I wish I could say sleeping but I was talking to the 2 out of 3 kids that were up. Considering they have been staying up all hours of the night for 6 weeks this was nothing short of a miracle. I could have done without the one getting up at 6 but I am not complaining.


3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?

Reading blogs while eating Doritos and drinking diet coke with lime because I am all about a healthy breakfast;-)


4. Name something that happened to you in 1992?

I was in the room when my SIL had her 3rd child. Honestly it was wonderful and so heartbreaking at the same time. I had been trying to years and never thought I would be able to have my own.


5. When is your birthday?

Dec 6! You can start shopping now to beat the rush:-P


6. Four words to explain why you last threw up?

My son had surgery

7. What color is your hairbrush?

black/purple


8. What was the last thing you bought?

Pizza to feed 11 people and only 3 were adults:-)


9. Where do you keep your money?


What money??


10. What was the weather like today?

Haven't been outside but the temp on my computer says 88 here and 90 in Jax, Fl. In here I have A/C so it feels great to me:-)


11. Where did your last hug take place?

In my apartment


12. What are you excited about?

My kids are home!! Keep up people lol


13. Do you want to cut your hair?

I never know..I cut it and then want it long...when it grows up I want it short. I don't know WHAT I want!


14. Are you over the age of 25?

Yes but age doesn't bother me

15. Do you talk a lot?


ROFL YES!! And I know 2 of you just snorted when you read that so HUSH!


16. Do you watch The O.C.?

nope


17. Does your screen name have an "x" in it?

Weird question but no

18. Do you know anyone named Kelsey?

ummm no


19. Do you make up your own words?

No I just pronounce the ones we already have in my own way...did you know orange is pronounced RRR-ange? or mayor is pronounced MARE and not MAYor...Hey you grow up with a native American Mom that grew up in Rhode Island and a British Father that grew up in Alabama and see if you can talk??

20. Are you ticklish?

Nope


21. Are you typically a jealous person?

No, No No, and NO. And I can't stand jealousy, especially among girlfriends. We're not in junior high anymore.
I just left Merci's answer because she is allowed to speak for me. It is a law.

22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter "C".

Cheryl


23. Who was the last person to call you?

I had to check my phone but it was the same person who tagged me for this lol I talked to others after that but I must have called them lol

24. Do you chew on your straws?

No and I can't stand it when people do...HUGE pet peeve!!


25. Do you have curly hair?

Oh no! I wish!

26. What is the next concert you're going to?

Probably Otisburg because my son will drag me:-) He is their biggest fan because he knows "guitar dude" personally.


27.Where did you go today?

I am not leaving my house today.


28. What is something you say a lot?

I am all about....I love you!....Geez I talk a lot remember? I am sure I say a lot of things a lot lol


29. Have you seen the movie 'Donnie Darko'?

Never heard of it.


30. Do you have to work tomorrow?

I have 3 kids what do you think? If you mean a paying job I don't go back till school starts.

31. Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?

I would have to say my kids in person but I am sure I just told someone else in a comment and in email. I told you I say it a lot.


32. What should you be doing right now?

Finishing my book but I know once I pick it up I won't want to put it down


33. Do you have a nickname?

I don't think I do unless you count Barbie. Oh wait the stbx might have one for me;-)


34. Are you a heavy sleeper?

No


35. What are you listening to?

My children talking to each other


36. What is the best movie you've seen in the past two week?

Ok this week I started out watching a movie with a friend to take my mind off the fact my son was fixin to have surgery.... then I watched a movie at another friends house....I also took the kids to see Spiderman 3 when they came home
...none of which were "the best" but I laughed and enjoyed the company

37. Is there anyone you like right now?

I am still legally married to my first mistake so NO.


38. When was the last time you did the dishes?

Last night after dinner


39. Did you cry today?

Not yet but the day isn't over.

I guess I will tag ~*~Jesica~*~ because she makes me laugh too! Hey and don't use the excuse you are going out of town!! :-P

These are the kids after I cleaned them up some lol Amazing what some haircuts can do!! It is so great to have them back home and know that they are taking their meds and all the other things that Moms seem to take care of:-) I still can't get over how much they have grown. I am not used to looking up to my 13yo! As you can see I have decided to let my oldest keep the length of his hair as long as his attitude doesn't start changing. We shall see how long it last before I decide it needs to be short again lol Friday night is our house is FRIDAY NIGHT SMACKDOWN! They are HUGE fans. This is my middle child waiting for it to come on

This is him in the middle of watching it lol

Too bad you can't hear how loud it is here but I am so loving the noise:-) I even enjoyed cooking a homecooked meal tonight knowing that they were eating healthy and not fast food.

Oh and for those who have asked about my oldest....I talked to the Dr today and the results of his biopsy confirm that he has Eosinophilic Esophagitis Now we just need to find out what it is that he is allergic to:-( Poor baby has already been through the allergy scratch test and I am not in a hurry to repeat that again! He has an appt next week to get a referral to a specialist and see where we go from here. I am just thankful that they are home safe where they belong.

Soooooooooo happy:-D They have grown so much too! My oldest is definitely taller than me now.

SOOOOOOO CLOSE!!

The kids are in Memphis, TN!! They should be here this afternoon so if I disappear I am busy kissing and hugging my kids. I can't believe I made it almost 6 weeks without seeing them or being able to hug them. They are coming home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They're on their way!!!!!!!!!

They were delayed a day because my oldest had to had a "procedure" done in the hospital....that sounds so much better than they put my baby under and I couldn't be there. Long story but I received the call that no Mother wants to get that said something about my oldest son, the paramedics, he was in the hospital and may need surgery...blah blah blah. I am the Mom and I am supposed to be there when things happen. I think that is a law or something....Instead I was 1200+ miles away and NO planes were flying out of OKC to JAX until the next morning. Even those flights would not make it in time. Why do they all have layovers in states that are NOT on the way???!! That makes no sense to me. Do people never want to leave Oklahoma so they don't need flights out?? Even if I drove through the night I couldn't get there in time...that was a HORRIBLE feeling. I believe what I did next shows my maturity and how much I have grown in the Lord.. NOT!....I fell on the floor in hyterics because that would make things better right?? I don't think I have ever felt so out of control and I couldn't do a dang thing about it. A dear friend came over and picked me up and somehow got me through the night...wait I know how..she prayed and loved me through the night and was just there. I truly am blessed by her daily. They did it at 7:26 the next morning and he is fine. He was discharged that afternoon and they left Florida this morning around 9am est. They diagnosed him with Eosinophilic Esophagitis and did a biopsy. I should have the results of that this week. After reading all about it I was aggravated that they didn't figure this out earlier because his Pedi in Florida was a GI Dr and knew about his symptoms. I guess the good thing that came out of this is we know what it is and can treat it. That is the only good thing because the rest of this just sucked.
BUT MY KIDS ARE COMING HOME!!!!!!!! They might drive straight through so I could see them in the middle of the night YAY! My babies are coming home and I don't have to do this again for another year.

Because I am silly:-)

Oh yes I did!!

Pictures

I am HORRIBLE about getting pictures developed. I don't mean I let them sit around for a couple of weeks or even a couple of months..I mean several YEARS! I decided that while the kids were gone I would drop off some old film. It had been so long I wasn't even sure what was on them or if I would cry or not. I was such a chicken that I had a friend look at them first before I did lol All together I dropped off 8 rolls but only 5 came out. I am actually sad that I lost so many pictures because some of these are just too cute! Thankfully we have a date feature on our camera because these are seriously old:-) Just to show you I am not kidding here is one of the pictures...keep in mind my children are 13, 10 and 7! In case you can't see the date in the corner it is 4/23/00 so that makes my children 6, 3 and 7 months!

3 days!!

My kids are leaving Florida to come home in 3 days!! Oh my word I can't wait!!!! :-) I am sooooo excited! I thought I would go insane without them because they have been my life for so long..I wasn't even sure who I was. I was surprised that I was able to actually enjoy myself and rediscover who I am. I still miss them with everything in me but it wasn't horrible. I didn't lock myself in my apartment and hide from the world like I thought...I am only half kidding too lol I have been able to have complete freedom and some days that meant spending time with friends and others walking around my apartment nekkid and watching movies all day. I have read a ton of books and had a lot of quiet time with my Father and I feel refreshed in some ways and exhausted in others because growing isn't always easy. I feel like this last year has been such a LONG year and I don't even feel like the same person I was when I moved here. So much has happened and God has taken me out of my comfort zone and had me totally rely of Him and some days that is hard. The cool thing about them coming home next week is I won't have to say goodbye for a whole nother year. I can't wait to have my babies home! I know I have been quiet and I appreciate the emails and phone calls checking on me...I didn't mean to make anyone worry I just haven't felt like getting on the computer;-) I am ok...God has shown me I really CAN do all things through Him when I quit trying to do it in my strength. I also have been blessed with an amazing support system. I have THE best church and the best friends. How many people can say they have friends that will come over and sit on the floor with you while you have food poisoning? AND bring you every kind of medicine just to make you feel better?...ok that is a whole story in itself but let me just say I will NEVER eat lamb again. Lamb is ewe!!....or people who will sit at the Drs with you till 2am? Or people who just call to make sure you are ok because you haven't been online? God has just blessed me with amazing friends...truly blessed me! Last year at this time I felt so alone thinking I was moving in just 10 days and here I am a year later with friends that I thank God for everyday and I couldn't be more blessed. I am just so thankful for all the things that God is doing in our lives also. God is so cool:-D

How cute is this??

This is how I have been spending part of the time away from my kids:-) This is my 3yo little friend who wanted to watch the Little People movie with me...."we can watch it TOgetHER" Who could say no to that face??

Before everyone freaks at once...I didn't just post a pic of someone elses kid without their Mom knowing it was on the internet because she put it on my myspace...after she created it for me lol I am so hip now:-P

2 More Weeks!

I know I have been quiet but I really miss my kids:-( This is so much harder than I ever imagined. I know God is in control and I remind myself of that every day...sometimes every hour:-/I talk to them daily but it doesn't compare to the hugs and kisses and seeing their faces. I know this is hard for them too and I feel bad that they feel torn between missing me and having fun. It is really hard and
when I hear things like they were lost in a waterpark while in the care their Grandpa (dhs dad)...I want to throw up thinking about the what ifs.
When I know they are staying up till 2am playing video games I get frustrated.
When I know they are spending time with Daddy AND his girlfriend I get really upset..ftr not because I am jealous but because we are still married and I don't want my kids to see sin as something that is ok because it is not. The seventh commandment is still in my Bible.
When I know they are eating fast food more often then homecooked meals I cringe.
I want them to have routine because that is what they are used to BUT I can't do anything except pray. Is that what I am supposed to learn in this? Is this another test of my faith? Wasn't trusting God to pack up and leave everything to move here enough?

Oh and for those keeping up with the longest divorce in the history of divorces...the court date is set for next Feb! Yes, that is Feb 2008! Apparently the courts are backed up and my life will just continue to stay on hold.

And so this doesn't sound entirely like I am just sitting home and crying I have amazing people in my life. I have been to Starbucks for coffee and fellowship several times with many different people. I have been out to lunch and dinner with girlfriends and other families. I have been shopping with friends. I have cooked all day with my favorite person in the whole world so I have freezer meals. I have laughed till my stomach hurt. I have been bowling. I have been to the movies. I have been given a tour of Oklahoma. I have been to Norman for boiled peanuts but they were out of them lol I have been able to love on others which so blesses me. I am planning a trip to Texas for a girls weekend. I HAVE been busy but that ache in my heart for my kids hasn't gone away. I miss them. Two weeks can't come fast enough......

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This was my FIRST holiday without my children:***(

Drum roll please

I promised I would name the Rockin Girl Bloggers today so here ya go....

Oh but first I want to really thank Clem for the kind words she wrote about me on her blog. I think you rock too!! Your words just blessed me so much. If you haven't known me long faith has always been such a struggle for me because it means letting go and trusting God. My lack of faith is why I didn't leave my marriage a long time ago. So to be told that I "ooze faith" just blessed me and reminded me of how far I have come. This year has been such a challenge for me and I think I understand better how the people felt when they left Egypt..sometimes it seems easier to just keep doing what you have always done because change IS hard and grumbling comes so easy. Oh I think this song explains it best. It is by Sara Groves

I don’t want to leave here
I don’t want to stay
It feels like pinching to me either way
The places I long for the most
Are the places where I’ve been
They are calling after me like a long lost friend

It’s not about losing faith
It’s not about trust
It’s all about comfortable
When you move so much
The place I was wasn’t perfect
But I had found a way to live
It wasn’t milk or honey
But then neither is this

CHORUS:
I’ve been painting pictures of Egypt
Leaving out what it lacked
The future seems so hard
And I want to go back
But the places that used to fit me
Cannot hold the things I"ve learned
And those roads closed off to me
While my back was turned

The past is so tangible
I know it by heart
Familiar things are never easy to discard
I was dying for some freedom
But now I hesitate to go
Caught between the promise
And the things I know

BRIDGE:
If it comes too quick
I may not recognize it
Is that the reason behind all this time and sand?
If it comes too quick
I may not appreciate it
Is that the reason behind all this time and sand?

Wait I said I was going to tell you who I thought the Rockin Girl Bloggers were and I got off on something else:-P Not hard for me because I think I have ADD:-D
Ok since you all know I think Oklahoma Rocks I am going to pick Oklahoma bloggers. Some of you I have met and some I can't wait to meet:-) Just email me and we can do lunch dahling! You know my schedule is just so flexible right now;-)

So without making this much longer

I will start with Grace...She is such a sweet blogger AND she makes cheesecake which is a plus...see that was a HUGE hint in case ya'll missed it. I love me some dessert lol We haven't met yet but we will:-)

Then I will head on over to ~*~Jesica~*~who I had the privilege of meeting last week. You wouldn't know that we just met to hear us together! I even took her dh on a date which just seems weird but trust me it wasn't lol I LOVE her kids and I had forgotten how much I enjoy babies. She talks just as much as I do so we closed down a Starbucks one night and I got home after midnight TWICE!

Then we have Kilikina who I haven't met either but she is really pregnant so I won't bug her:-) SOOOO sweet though!! Oh my gosh and go check out the pic on June 18th of her little basketball belly...I can't figure out how to link that one but it is TOOOOOO cute!! She is contracting right now so send some easy labor prayers..I am so excited for her lol

And we can't forget Merci who I have also met and mentioned on here before:-) She is an amazing person and I love reading her blog. She blesses me just by breathing. You know that friend that just knows your heart without you saying a word? that is her:-) I can honestly say I could not have gotten through this last year without her love and support. You really do rock lol

Last but not least is someone new to Oklahoma Robin who moved here from Texas. She is REAL and that is a huge plus in my book. And she loves my Jesus and that shows.

So consider yourself Rockin Girl Bloggers!!

Thank You!

Look I rock! At least Clem thinks so:-) How sweet is she AND she has met me IRL! Yeah you can all be jealous now because I have met her :-P~~~~~~~~
I know the rule is to pick 5 and I will do that....tomorrow:-) I have to apologize but my head is pounding and looking at the computer screen makes me want to take an ice pick to my sinuses to relieve some of this pressure. Oh my word the rain won't STOP and for some reason I seem to be allergic to rain. Yeah and we are on day 16 of consecutive rain:-(

In other news if you live within a square mile of my church and woke up to find an American flag in your front yard...you're welcome lol ~*~Jesica~*~ helped so you can thank her too:-) There were over 1200 flags so obviously we had help;-) Doesn't it look pretty though?? Ok I am going to crawl back into my covers and pray the rain stops or the pounding in my head does.

FYI

I am still alive:-)
I am sick of boxed meals
I miss home cooking
AND
I miss my kids like crazy!! After spending a couple of days doing nothing I had to get out and see people. I got to meet another "imaginary friend" from the internet. She was actually a friend of a friend or a friend of a friend's friend lol I spent Saturday and Sunday with her family and remembered how much I love babies! I stayed out till almost midnight both nights! I am like a little kid with so much freedom. They even went to church with me and found out why I love my church so much. Don't worry I have been trying to spread my love around so I don't drive just one person crazy lol Of course, my favorite person in the whole world picked the time my kids went out of town to go on vacation...yeah she did!! And just when I needed her the most... Isn't that so wrong?? She is home now and I fully expect her to make it up to me by going to lunch or dinner with me SOON:::::::::BIG GRIN:::::::::(did that work cuz I know you are reading? ;-) ) I AM kidding for those who don't know me. Guilt would never work with her;-) FTR she did send me a card that arrived while she was gone so how sweet is she??? Other than that I am just watching the rain fall. I AM SO SICK OF RAIN. I thought I moved to a drier place but it has rained like two weeks straight.

Rain rain go away!!

First let me say I just feel blessed that so many people care about my feelings. I have sat here and cried happy tears at some of the emails I have received. I didn't mean to make it sound like all I am doing is crying in this post.... I AM having a hard time because I really haven't been away from my kids. I miss them and I feel like part of me is gone. I think this is part of the loss..the sending them away for visitation is just another part of divorce that hurts. I know I have said it a million times but I never thought this is how my life would turn out. I think it is the loss of the dream that I am mourning still and it is a process. A LONG process. I miss the person I thought I married. I don't miss the abuse and I don't miss the hurt. I don't know if I have shared here but I am not ready to date. For one the divorce isn't final but the bigger reason is I don't want to repeat the same pattern. I want to know why I stayed as long as I did. Why did I excuse behaviors and allow bad things to happen? I wouldn't want that for anyone else so why did *I* stay? Did I not think I was important enough? did I think I deserved it? Until I have some answers I will be single. I am taking this time to learn who I am in Christ. Everyday I learn something new. I think the kids being gone is helping me face some things head on. I was going to try and stay as busy as I could so I didn't have to think about it but God told me to "STOP and listen" so today that is what I have done. Today I turned off the phones, turned off the radio and tv and cleaned...Cleaning helps me relax and think. I focus better when I am cleaning. I don't have anyone here so talking out loud to God seems normal lol I am just taking my time and thanking God for what I have. I know I left so much behind and some days that bothers me that I am in a different income bracket and I live on a tighter budget...but today I remembered that I am not in debt, my bills are paid and what I have is mine. Don't get me wrong I am far from materialistic..I just didn't know I would be starting over at 37 lol
But I am blessed.
I have friends that love me.
I have people that have lived this that have emailed me some really encouraging things that give me hope.
I have people that haven't lived this but know my heart and they have blessed me beyond measure.
I have people that challenge me,
people that lift me up,
people that sit and cry with me and feel my pain,
people that carry me to God's feet...what more could I ask for??
I can also say that I am breaking the cycle for my kids and as hard as that has been it will be worth it...My dd will grow up and know who she is in Christ. My boys will know how to treat their wives and stop the cycle that has continued in the family for years.
I really am blessed.
God gave me the strength and courage to do something I never thought possible. Some days it still feels like a dream. Some days I wonder who that person was that was able to break free and then I remember that I can do all things through Christ..it was in His strength that I was able to do it.
It hurts still but it will be worth it.
Watching God's hand in our lives has been something none of us will soon forget. My kids will always remember and hopefully when God asks them to do something outside of their comfort zone they will remember that God takes care of all the details.
And that means God knew they would be going to Florida and He will take care of them. He will watch over and protect them. I have that to hold onto:-)

The question that seems to be on everyone's lips is "what are you doing without your kids??" so I am going to answer that for you...

just don't be jealous cuz my life is so interesting:-P

Saturday

I said goodbye to my kids and cried
called a dear friend and cried to her
cried some more
talked to everyone else in the family but didn't cry
hung up and cried
talked to several friends that called but didn't cry
hung up and cried
talked to kids
hung up and cried myself to sleep

Sunday

Woke up and turned the alarm off
I decided not to go to church because of the whole Fathers Day thing
decided my house was way too quiet
cried
remembered I hadn't eaten in over 24hrs when I started feeling sick
ate some soup
talked to kids who were in Alabama by this time
cried myself to sleep

Monday

woke up at 9
answered some emails
decided it was too early and went back to bed
set alarm for NOON lol
Got up and started day
called bank about buying a house
Went to Dr for full physical including my girly parts
realized it was more action than I have had in a long time;-)
Celebrated by having dinner at a friends house lol
ate steak and watched tivo
made mental note that when I start watching more tv and become less cheap I really want tivo
went grocery shopping alone and stocked up on food that I could cook for just one.
talked to kids who were in Florida by this time
cried myself to sleep

Tuesday

Bank called me back and I was approved
Friend from church picked me up and we spent day together
Went shopping (I HATE shopping)
ate at a restaurant that was new to me...really enjoyed the food:-)
went to see a horror flick
shopped some more
came home and took a nap
laughed on phone with a different friend
thanked God for the people in my life
got ready for a storm that was supposed to be really bad
talked to my kids
cried because I miss them SOOOOOOOOOOO much
started reading a book
fell asleep and missed the whole storm

Wednesday

woke up at 10:30 to phone ringing
bank called and wanted a name for the realtor I was using
finished reading the book I started the night before
thought about cleaning and quickly pushed that thought out of my head
went to store for batteries and cleaning stuff just in case I change my mind
ate at Braums
took a nap again
woke up at 7pm
typed this:-)

Now aren't you glad you asked??

Sniff Sniff

I think they miss the kids too:*( It is too quiet.....

::::::sigh::::::

Today is the day they leave. It was supposed to be on Thursday but their Dad had some scheduling issues so he is on his way right now. He is in Texas so he should be here some time this afternoon. I am having a hard time. I couldn't sleep last night knowing I have to say goodbye today. I sat and stared at them most of the night just like I did when they were babies. You know things weren't supposed to turn out like this:*( I said "till death do us part" and I meant it but sometimes you don't have a choice...I shouldn't have to say goodbye to my children because of someone elses actions. It doesn't seem fair. I am trying so hard to remember this is about them spending time with their Dad....that God knows what is best and loves them even more than I do and He will take care of them....that this will be a good thing. It's soooooooooooooooo hard and if the tears right now are any indication the next 6 weeks are going to be rough. How do you stop being a Mom after 13 yrs? How do I turn that off? I should have children to cook for and do laundry for and clean up after. I shouldn't have an empty nest while they are 7, 10 and 13! This really really really sucks:******(

OUCH!!

I feel like such a horrible Mom!! My children are sunburned!! We spent the day at the pool with my favorite people and I swear the sun is hotter in Oklahoma! How else do you explain 3 children who were born and raised in FLORIDA getting their first sunburns in Oklahoma?!! My poor middle child's face is burnt to a crisp:-( His lips are so red they look like he is wearing lipstick. He also looks like he had botox injections because he isn't moving his face lol I had to get him to smile fast for the picture. Even I am red and I NEVER burn. I am sure their Daddy will get a good laugh at me when he picks them up since I am the one that doesn't wear sunscreen because the sun seems to avoid me. There were many nights of me rubbing aloe on his sunburn while I sat there white as a ghost AFTER spending the day at the beach. I always figured it was the Native American in me. That sure doesn't explain today lol They are exhausted from all the fun they had today so they said it was worth it:-) Kids are so funny but *I* feel bad because it looks painful. I just rubbed them down with aloe and we are going to watch a movie since they are tired. Even with sunburn they are cute aren't they? :-D I had a week of fun planned before they leave but I am thinking the zoo day may have to wait till they get back:-/ BTW the oldest WILL get a haircut when he comes back from Florida lol I am gonna miss their faces:::sigh::::I hope it gets easier

Car Update

This is my car----->

I just thought I would update ya'll on my car situation:-) Remember this post? Well, it was last Sunday that I was told they were towing my car and would let me know something. I hadn't heard anything all week and I was honestly starting to worry a little. I can go worst case scenario real quick...it is one of my many skills;-) I refused to call to find out because I was trying to just trust that God was taking care of it...again hard for me to do but I managed without so much as ONE phonecall. This morning I went to church and the man that took my keys last Sunday sat across from me and nobody said a word about the car. NOT ONE WORD. Talk about trying not to panic. After SS I was packing up my Bible and getting ready to leave and wondering if I should say anything and he said "Barbie did anyone call you about your car?...it is ready and will be delivered to the church tomorrow"...I asked what ended up being the problem and like it was totally nothing he said "you were right it was the transmission so they just put a NEW Ford transmission in it"...I just started bawling..I don't mean a little tear... I MEAN bawling! HOW in the heck do you thank someone for that?? I know it might not seem like a lot to someone else but to me this is HUGE. I need a car. I was told that the men in the church had already taken care of it so I personally walked around and thanked as many as I could. Lots of tears were shed today and not all by me lol One man looked at me and said "you can thank me by hugging my neck" and I did:-) Then he went on to explain that THIS is what churches are supposed to do...they are supposed to be the body of Christ and take care of the single folk. I can't tell you how blessed I feel and how unworthy I feel all at the same time....BUT once again God's provision is amazing and once again I just know this is where I am supposed to be..God has had His hand in this from the beginning and continues to take care of us...even when I doubt.