4/07/2007

I actually forgot this was our first Easter alone! I know that doesn't seem like a big thing for most of you but those who have been through this will understand THAT IS HUGE! I also feel relaxed for the first time in a long time. I feel like I have been on red alert for so long and now I can relax. I haven't shared this part on here because I know I have family on both sides reading and I didn't want to show my cards:-) Now I can...I am not one that likes surprises and I need to know what is going to happen next so I have been out of my comfort zone for awhile... But in October my stbx had threatened to make us move back to Florida. I went to see a lawyer at that time and although he couldn't force us to do it physically he could make it impossible for me to stay. It may not seem significant but he HAD the power to file in Florida for 6 whole months! If he would have filed I would have had to go back and forth to fight in court. There is no way I could afford to do that. The laws are also very different and Thursday would have had a different outcome. There are so many things that would have changed how this turned out but God took care of EVERY SINGLE DETAIL. That He loved ME enough is beyond humbling. I am just in awe. Getting jurisdiction in Oklahoma was just one part of it! the fact that I had an AMAZING lawyer that was willing to do this for nothing was another God thing! I didn't just get a good deal I got a "God deal"...When I left Thursday I kept thinking I was going to do that part withOUT a lawyer..oh my word I am so glad that God knew what I needed before I did! With this weekend being Easter I started thinking about the emotions of those who were there when Jesus was crucified.... to understand my thought process you would have to understand my crazy way of thinking and that would take an eternity to explain;-) I was thinking it is easy now to look back and see God's hand in this and knowing the outcome makes it easier to live but the whole not knowing was hard...that made me think about the disciples..no I am not comparing myself to them....but WE have the luxury of knowing how the story ends and they didn't. Can you imagine how they felt the day before he came back from the dead? do you think they were starting to doubt? they had followed him around for so long and then their Messiah was dead and buried. Having faith in the beginning is easy but when the days stretch on and you realize what you have lost and the future seems so bleak can you imagine?? On that Saturday night do you think they lost heart or were they still waiting for Him to come back? I don't know but I imagine on the Sunday morning there was a celebration that compares to no other...I hope you all have a wonderful Resurrection Sunday and for those is Oklahoma City that don't have a church home email me at Barbiemamato3@aol.com

3 comments:

ame said...

:)

remembering that God DOES know the outcome, even when we do not, is something good to keep in the forefront of our thoughts. God knew . . . and it's awesome :)

have a wonderful, peaceful Easter :)

Larissa said...

Good post...I am so glad that everything has worked out! That is encouraging to us all!

Lyndy said...

Barbie,

Thank you for visiting my blog and for your kind words. You too have been through a lot my sweet new friend. Please know you and your precious children are in my prayers.

Lyndy