I know it has been a week lol What can I say? my life is insane;-) Here is the play by play because I don't have time to answer ALL of the emails in my inbox lol Last week seems like a blur. My oldest has asthma and not just asthma but ASTHMA. He doesn't just have the kind you treat with an inhaler he has the kind that requires the nebulizer to be pulled out. Sometimes it gets so bad that I have to take him to the Dr and one time the DR called 911! Its a little freaky when a Dr calls 911 and your son is taken in an ambulance. Last week he had problems breathing so sleeping was a luxury.
I think Monday and Tuesday we did very little outside of the home.
Wed we went to church.
Thursday I had to pull him out of school but I had a meeting I couldn't get out of so a friend came over to babysit all of my kids.
Friday I had to pull him out again for neb treatments so I took him to the Dr for steroids.
Saturday he was doing much better. I had a million errands to run before their Daddy moved into town on Sunday...I will give you a minute to let that soak in:-)...Saturday I also had several inches cut off of my hair. It is SHORT for me. It was to the middle of my back and now it is just above my shoulders.
Sunday we all got up and went to church and then went to the store. The kids wanted to bake a cake for their Dad since today is his birthday. Oh wait I haven't told ya'll about all of that have I? The kids Dad decided that 1200 miles was too far so he quit his job and moved out here. He is staying in a hotel around the corner till he figures out the rest of his plan. For us it is life as normal and the kids have school and I have work...
Tonight (Monday) I have a meeting and I think dh is going to tag along.
Tomorrow night (Tuesday) is the Fall Festival at church.
Wed I have an appt after work and church at night.
Thursday I have a 2hr meeting after work and then a teacher conference after that.
Friday is still up in the air. I am scheduled to work but the kids are out of school so if dh can't watch them I have to take off work. I have no idea what I am doing this weekend. At some point I want to let dh be the parent and I want a night out withOUT kids:-) Ok so everyone can stop panicking I am fine...well, fine for me:-D

As most of you can see I have updated to the new version of Blogger. It has some new features and I would like to run one of the safety ones by you...I pretty much already know who is reading my blog because I have sitemeter even if you can't see it:-) I was thinking about making this blog "permission only" and I could invite you by your email address...the only problem is you would have to sign in to read it...is this something that you would mind doing? I know it is one extra step but I am asking because if I did that I could be a lot more open in my posts:-) Then I would have control over who was seeing what and my whole life wouldn't be out there for the whole world to see kwim So if you could email me or leave a comment and let me know what you think?...thanks! I haven't 100% decided but I thought I would ask your opinions first:-)

Remember this guy from Ghostbusters?? This is what I am going to look like this winter with a million layers of clothes on! It is ONLY Fall and we have seen our first freeze...yeah yeah I know that is nothing to ya'll but it is 88 degrees in my hometown right now! That I am used to! I was sooooo cold last night that I skipped church this morning. I didn't want to get out of bed!! I don't even want to leave the house lol I did have to run and get something this morning and I put on 2 sweaters and a jacket. As I am looking around people are in short sleeves..are these people insane?? Yesterday we had a wind advisory and the wind was blowing so hard I thought it would knock ME over! My oldest said he had never seen wind like that without a name attached to it lol he is referring to the tropical storms:-) I am sure I will get used to it and be one of those insane people with short sleeves on but right now OH. MY. WORD. it is COLD! I still love it here and wouldn't trade it for the world...so if you are in Oklahoma and you see this person with Florida tags on her car don't point and laugh when you see how overdressed her and her children are:-)

TV Show Meme

Got this from "Merci"'s blog..funny thing is I am so NOT a TV watcher but you wouldn't know that from this list lol Although some of these shows are OLD! Wow I had forgotten about a lot of them...talk about a walk down memory lane!

The instructions are simple: change the color and/or boldface the shows you've watched at least three complete episodes of, and Bold and Italicize a show if you're certain you've seen every episode of it.You can add up to three shows to the list, but keep them in alphabetical order.

24
3rd Rock from the Sun
7th Heaven
Adam-12
Aeon Flux
A.L.F
Alfred Hitchcock Presents
Alias
Alice
Alien Nation
Allo Allo
American Idol/Pop Idol/Canadian Idol/
Australian Idol
America's Next Top Model/Germany's Next Top Model
Angel
Arrested Development
Babylon 5
Babylon 5: Crusade
Battlestar
Battlestar Galactica (the old one)
Battlestar Galactica (the new one)
Baywatch
Batman
Beauty & the Beast
Beavis & Butthead
The Ben Stiller Show
Beverly Hills 90210
Bewitched
BJ and the Bear
Bonanza
Bones
Bosom Buddies
Boston Legal
Boy Meets World
Brady Bunch
Buck Rogers in the 25th Century
Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Bug Juice
Chappelle's Show
Charlie's Angels
Charmed
Cheers
China Beach
Columbo
Commander in Chief
Coupling
Cowboy Bebop
Crossing Jordan
CSI
CSI: Miami
CSI: NY
Curb Your Enthusiasm
Dallas
Dancing with the Stars
Danny Phantom
Dark Angel
Dark Skies
Davinci's Inquest
Dawson's Creek
Dead Like Me
Deadliest Catch
Deadwood
Degrassi: The Next Generation
Designing Women
Desperate Housewives
Dharma & Greg
Diff'rent Strokes
Doctor Who (new Who)
Doctor Who (series 1-26)
Dragnet
Dr. Phil
Due South
Dungeons and Dragons
Dynasty
Earth 2Earth - Final Conflict
Emergency!
Enterprise
Entourage
ER
Escape From Planet Earth
Everwood
Everybody Loves Raymond
Facts of Life
Falcon Crest
Family Guy
Family Ties
Fantasy Island
Farscape
Fawlty Towers
Felicity
Firefly
Flamingo Road
Frasier
Friends
Full House
Futurama
Get Smart
Gilligan's Island
Gilmore Girls
Gomer Pyle, U.S.M.C.
Green Wing
Grey's Anatomy
Growing Pains
Gunsmoke
Happy Days
Head of the Class
Hercules
Highlander
Hill Street Blues
Hogan's Heroes
Home Improvement
Homicide: Life on the Street
House
I Dream of Jeannie
I Love Lucy
Invader Zim
Invasion
Iron Chef (Japan)Iron Chef (USA)Ironside
JAG
Jackass
Jeopardy
Joey
John Doe
Kath and Kim
Knight Rider
Knots Landing
La Femme Nikita
LA Law
Laugh-In
Laverne and Shirley
Law & Order
Law & Order: Criminal Intent
Law & Order: SVU
Little House on the Prairie
Lizzie McGuire
Logan's Run
Lois and Clark: The New Adventures of Superman
Lost
Lost in Space
Love, American Style
M*A*S*H
MacGyver
Magnum P.I.
Malcolm in the Middle
Married...With Children
Melrose Place
Miami Vice
Millenium
Mission Impossible
Monk
Moonlighting
Mork & Mindy
Murphy Brown
My Family
My Favorite Martian
My Life as a Dog
My Mother the Car
My So-Called Life
My Three Sons
My Two Dads
Mysterious Cities of Gold
NCIS
Night Court
Nip/Tuck
Northern Exposure
Numbers
One Tree Hill
Oz
Parker Lewis Can't Lose
Perfect Strangers
Perry Mason
Picket Fences
Pirates of Darkwater
Pokemon
Power Rangers
Prison Break
Profiler
Project Blue Book ("Project UFO" in UK)
Project Runway
Psyche
Quantum Leap
Queer As Folk (US)Queer asFolk (British)
Queer Eye For The Straight Guy
ReGenesis
Remington Steele
Rescue Me
Road Rules
ROME
Roseanne
Roswell
Samurai Jack
Sanford & Son
Saved by the Bell
Scarecrow and Mrs. King
Scooby-Doo Where Are You?
Scrubs
Seinfeld (this one deserved to be larger lol)
Sex and the City
Six Feet Under
Sliders
Slings and Arrows
Smallville
Small Wonder
So Weird
South Park
Space 1999
Spaced
Spongebob Squarepants
Sports PERIOD! Monday Night Football, World Series, c'mon, what kind of TV do you think there is to watch nowdays, eh?
Sports Night
Square Pegs
St. Elsewhere
Star Trek
Star Trek: The Next Generation
Star Trek: Deep Space Nine
Star Trek: Voyager
Star Trek: Enterprise
Stargate Atlantis
Stargate SG-1
Superman
Supernatural
Surface
Survivor
Taxi
Teen Titans
Teletubbies
That Girl
That 70's Show
That's So Raven
The 4400
The Addams Family
The Andy Griffith Show
The A-Team
The Avengers
The Beverly Hillbillies
The Bionic Woman
The Book of Daniel
The Colbert Report
The Cosby Show
The Daily Show
The Dead Zone
The Dick Van Dyke Show
The Dukes of Hazard
The Flintstones
The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air
The Golden Girls
The Greatest American Hero
The Jetsons
The L Word
The Love Boat
The Mary Tyler Moore Show
The Mighty Boosh
The Monkees
The Munsters
The Mythbusters
The O.C.
The Office (UK)
The Office (US)
The Outer Limits
The Pretender
The Prisoner
The Real World
The Shield
The Simpsons
The Six Million Dollar Man
The Sopranos
The Suite Life of Zack and Cody
The Twilight Zone
The Waltons
The West Wing
The Wild Wild West
The Wonder Years
The X-Files
Third Watch
Thirtysomething
Three's Company
Top Gear
Twin Peaks
Twitch City
Upstairs, Downstairs
"V"
Veronica Mars
Wings
What Not To Wear (US)What Not To Wear (UK)
Whose Line is it Anyway? (US)Whose Line is it Anyway? (UK)
Witchblade
Will & Grace
Wonderfalls
Wonder Woman
Xena: Warrior Princess
Young Hercules

My southern is showing today:-) Today is the first offical day of fall break...today I am wanting to take care of some things around the house that I have neglected so we are staying home..well, the trip to Wal-Mart does count but NOW we are home for the night;-) It is pretty chilly outside to ME...I know the folks here are laughing but right now in my hometown in Florida it is 82 degrees so a WINDY 55 is chilly. I don't know how long it will take me to get used to the wind but I do know I will probably cut all my hair off before winter is over lol One thing that cold weather does is make me want to cook. Not just baking but real southern cooking. So tonight for dinner I am cooking up a mess of greens with some extra turnip roots cuz we ALL love them, a big ole pot of beans cooked in pig parts:::big grin::::and some sweet cornbread to soak up the pot liquor...oh and for our belly washer we will have some real sweet tea...not this stuff they try to pass off as sweet tea in Oklahoma:-D Later tonight we will enjoy our first fire in the fireplace..I bought some wood in a bag so don't be too impressed...OH and we will watch Over the Hedge with some hot cocoa...Just a quiet night with the kids and I...something I think we have all needed...I only share because I just know how interested some of you are in the boring happenings in our day to day life;-)

I have two words for ya'll:-) FALL BREAK!! That is all I have to say about that lol I will see you all Monday! Oh wait I do have one more thing to say...yeah you know I can't just leave it at that...I want to thank you all for the prayers and encouraging emails. It really helps to know that others care and are praying....God truly is amazing and I really am doing fine! Thanks again!!

Guess what I did today?? I was in a twinkie eating contest lol Funny part is I don't even like twinkies but I don't back down to a challenge:-) I am also one of those weird people that can eat anything even if I don't like it..you would never know if you were a bad cook and I was just faking it lol Wait if I ask for the recipe it is because I DO like it so don't everyone panic at once:-) I only lost by one and to show my good sportmanship I smashed that one in the challengers face...yeah it was in fun so don't think I have lost my mind :-P It was so funny and I had twinkie cream up my nose from cramming them in my mouth..I thought I was going to choke cuz they are soooo dry...nasty little things:-P That and we were all laughing so hard! See why I like my job? Who else can go to work and enter a twinkie eating contest while being cheered on by hundreds of people. Go Twinkie Power;-)

Which are You?

THERE are two kinds of people on earth to-day;
Just two kinds of people, no more, I say.

Not the sinner and saint, for it's well understood,
The good are half bad, and the bad are half good.

Not the rich and the poor, for to rate a man's wealth,
You must first know the state of his conscience and health.

Not the humble and proud, for in life's little span,
Who puts on vain airs, is not counted a man.

Not the happy and sad, for the swift flying years
Bring each man his laughter and each man his tears.

No; the two kinds of people on earth I mean,
Are the people who lift, and the people who lean.

Wherever you go, you will find the earth's masses,
Are always divided in just these two classes.

And oddly enough, you will find too, I ween,
There's only one lifter to twenty who lean.

In which class are you? Are you easing the load,
Of overtaxed lifters, who toil down the road?

Or are you a leaner, who lets others share
Your portion of labor, and worry and care?

Ella Wheeler Wilcox

I am so glad that I serve a God that just loves me for me....even with all my faults and trust me there are many! I talk too much, I worry too much, I care too much..still God loves ME! Tonight that just hit how much:**) Some days I get worried about how things are going to work out and what tomorrow holds...I worry about the holidays and my kids being so far away from family. How will they feel? how will I afford Christmas gifts? Yet God is constantly showing me ways He is taking care of me....some are very hard for me because they involve other people and I am so not good at receiving. I am a much better giver. He is still so patient and loving and He hasn't given up on me! I want to get to that point that when something bad happens that I can just sit and wait to see how God is going to take care of it...He knows my needs before I even need them! Nothing surprises God but I am not there yet. I still worry. When something bad happens I still get upset and ask God why and how and all the details of His plan. Tonight I was just thinking about all the different worries I had THIS YEAR alone...the move, the marriage, the money to move, the car, the job, the kids, the school etc...HE had a plan all along. It may not have always been easy to see but later you could look back and see His hand in it. I am just amazed at how He HAS been here for me. I just feel sooooo thankful and blessed tonight. I also feel loved. I know that may be easy for some but for me that isn't an easy thing. So tonight I just want to THANK GOD for everything. I don't need to know WHAT tomorrow holds because HE holds my tomorrow. Maybe next time I won't stress out so much:-) If not there is always the time after that.. it is a good thing His mercies are new every morning:-)

Update:
It IS broken:-( This is ds2 with his new blue cast.

Sorry I haven't updated and thank to those who emailed to remind me;-) lol This week has just been insane. Wednesday started out a normal day and I left early to attend the "meet me at the flagpole" at the local high school here for prayer and music...it was such a blessing to see teenagers praising God in a PUBLIC high school! I went to a private Christian school growing up so doing stuff like that was the "norm"....for these kids to take a stand in a HUGE public school is HUGE to me and refreshing:**) ...Oh and the youth pastor from the church I have been visting was there...gotta love that!! Then I went to work and had an amazing morning. I work with other Christians and we end up singing and goofing off while working. I really LOVE my job which I know is a blessing in itself...how many people can say they love their job kwim? Things are going along like any other day and then my cell buzzes...it is a dear friend and my 9yo son has been injured at school. Being a SINGLE Mom slapped me in the face HARD:-( For the first time in my life as Mom someone else went to the school to pick up my son:**( I am beyond thankful that it is someone I love and trust but it was still so hard for me. I know that my family that is reading this just gasped because NOBODY has ever been allowed to get my kids from school...NOBODY other than my parents. She brought my son to my job and we took him to a little "doc in a box" for x-rays. Monday I am taking him to an Orthopedist for a second opinion. Right now he has his arm in a splint and his elbow and hand are really swollen:-( When my 9yo doesn't want to play video games he is hurting! So that is a glimpse into the life of this single Mom:-) It seems like when things are going great satan tries to knock me down...I AM learning to get up quicker and brush myself off but some days I just get tired and wonder why it has to be so hard....I am SOOOOO thankful that I serve an understanding God that loves me no matter how many times I fail. So today I am counting my blessings (there are many!!) and taking my kids to a local museum..oh yeah! for those who don't know today is National Museum Day and you can get in for free:-) Can't beat that price!! Plus I haven't been to the one here and it sounds better than sitting at home lol Hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend!!

46 Degrees in SEPTEMBER!!!

My kids are so confused lol They still don't understand how it is "winter" when we haven't had Christmas yet! I am just gonna say that 46 degrees in September is JUST WRONG! I wanted to see fall but 46??? I have been cooking at a nice 106degrees all summer and you give me 46?? I am gonna freeze this winter lol

Church Woes

I have been in Oklahoma for close to two months now and I haven't found a church...it is so frustrating because there is one on every corner lol I really tried to love the first one I went to visit because it was right down the street. I want that sense of community and I want my kids to meet other kids in the neighborhood. I tried to ignore that I hated the music portion and kept going until they started a series on the family...oh my word that was HARD to listen to:**( The second week into the series I literally got up and left crying. I just left the man I love with all my heart so the last thing I want to hear about it is the "perfect" family. I don't want to hear about how the man should lead the family in prayer and all the other things I never had. It was too painful. I started looking for something closer to what I went to in Florida. I don't have a particular denomination that I just cling to. I was raised..well, not exactly "raised" but I rode a bus to a Baptist church growing up lol As a young child I became very active in a Independent Fundamentalist Baptist Church with the whole list of rules that went with it...I am not knocking them because they kept me in line as a youngster when I could have been rebellious:-) Actually I did become a little rebellious at 19 and ended up marrying my dh lol But that is whole nother story lol Ok back to this story I quit going to church completely and jumped into married life and working and trying to have babies. Somewhere in there I became broken and needed God..I think it was in between our losses of pregnancies and my marriage falling apart...this was 10yrs ago so it wasn't the "end" of my marriage but the beginning of major problems. I started going with my SIL to a non-denominational church and I LOVED it. I realized for the first time it wasn't about a religion or a set of rules it was about a relationship with Jesus Christ...that changed my life and my way of thinking. Once again I stopped going to church...at this point my only excuse was I was tired of getting the kids ready to go to church and taking them alone...I nursed mine so I often had to leave the service to feed them and my oldest hated being away from me...it wasn't a pleasant experience. Then several years ago I realized I need God and I had to quit choosing my dh over Him. There were people God had placed in my life (you know who you are) that had something I wanted...Jesus would just shine SOOOO brightly from them and I missed that..I knew I had it once and I longed to have that again. So I started going again. This time I started attending an Assembly of God...I won't say I agree with everything they believe but I know it was where God wanted me...The church was huge and played a large role in our community and I loved it. I want something like that again.... I called my old church and they found an AOG around the corner from me and I went to visit. The music..oh how do I explain the music...I LOVED the music and part of my worship is through music. I have always always listened to Christian music and even through my "rebellious" stage I couldn't listen to stuff that wasn't uplifting...music just effects me. I may not be able to sing but I still love it lol I enjoyed the music and the preaching part BUT I can't seem to find a SS class that I fit in. The church is big and I know from experience you need to be in a small group somewhere to really get to know people. I need to be a part of a church and a part of the body...I need to be able to do for others. Still where do I fit in? I can't attend a couples class because I am not a couple...I can't attend the one without a name sopeoplelikemecanfeelcomfortable because 90% of them are way older than me and I didn't like the singles class because it was only 2 women and more like a social hour. I want teaching. I NEED teaching. So I am going back but only to the main service until I can find something. The kids LOVE it but is that because they are just playing? I hate looking for a church and I know that God wanted me in Oklahoma.... I know He has a church picked out for me but how do I find it with churches EVERYWHERE? How can I attend a single class when I have no desire to hook up with other single men and they seem more like a dating service IME. Yes, I am a single Mom but I am a Mom that just wants to take care of her children and I am NOT looking for a replacement for the man I love. So please join me in prayer that I can find the perfect church for my family I would appreciate it:-)

Warning this is gross so if you are eating you might want to wait to read this lol I have a weak tummy when it comes to certain things :-P I can handle blood all day long but boogers and poop are a whole nother story. I WILL vomit. Also I guess to understand this story you have to know my cat and dog like the trash can so I have to keep it locked in the bathroom while we are gone. Today the trash was in the bathroom but a little nameless child left the door open. We came home to trash everywhere.....ok this was part of why I wanted to clean today lol ANYWAY, I was cleaning the boys bathroom and this little blob of brown stuff was on the tile....I was soGROSSED out! How could the boys miss the toilet while pooping?? how is that possible?? I immediately started gagging and trying not to vomit...as I was cleaning it the blob smeared which immediately triggered the vomit reflex...yuck! Then the smell hit me! Would you believe it was just PEANUT BUTTER?? lol All that drama over peanut butter:-P So that was my exciting Friday night:-D Makes being a single Mom look so glamorous doesn't it??

WOW! I thought I could just disappear and nobody would really notice but gosh I was wrong lol I have been pleasantly surprised with the emails I have received!! How sweet are ya'll??!! It is so great to know that others are praying for me and care about what is going on:-) That so touches my heart!! I guess I WILL update but because I have become increasingly concerned with internet safety I will leave my childrens names off and I might be vague about location:-) Oklahoma is pretty big so that is all you need to know lol The kids are doing great and my dd just had her 7th b-day. I wanted so much to make her b-day special since it would be her first here but unfortunately I was sick...really sick:-/ It is hard to be a single Mom and sick!! I literally laid on the couch for 2 days and if it wasn't for my dear friends Mom my kids would have had cereal for dinner two nights instead of one lol Her Mama also baked my dd a cake and brought cookies to her school so the day wasn't totally ruined. The kids Daddy flew in the day after and spent a few days with them. I took that opportunity to see a Dr and got meds for the pneumonia I had...fun times lol I had a party for her at Chuck E Cheese the following week to make up for it:-) The kids are also doing great in school and I love that the teachers email ya with updates. I am SOOOO impressed with the Oklahoma school system and I knew on paper it looked good but now I can say from experience. I also love my job and how many people can say that?? I work while my kids are in school so I can still do all the Mom things that are needed. I feel blessed that although I am a single Mom I am able to work while they are in school and I have school holidays off;-) God has really taken care of us and I am so blessed!

Just to give you something to read:-)
Here are a few of my favorite blogs

"Merci" My favorite person in the whole wide world and an IRL friend:-) Yeah I am blessed!
The Crib Chick very funny "chick" who keeps me laughing
inexorably loved an18 yr old that just blesses my heart with her love for Christ
Shalee's just funny
BooMama with her I never know if I will laugh or cry and I usually end up doing both!
Rocks In My Dryer Shannon doesn't need an introduction
All the blessings My faithful encourager
Brian Briscoe Little boy I am praying for with cancer...he has the SWEETEST Mama ever!
Blogging With
Christian Women Online some of my favorite bloggers are here

Ok that is just a few but it will give you something to read:-)

Sorry to disappear without an explanation...I won't be updating my blog anymore BUT my email is always open...My email address is in my profile:-) Thank you all for your prayers over these last few months. I appreciate your support more than you know!!